Ugh

And suddenly for the first time in forever, I don't know who to talk to about this matter. Haih :(

I know i can tell God about it but um you know he doesnt give me like direct response??? Which is like what I currently need the most actually :/

But I doubt anyone can make the decision except for myself lah

But i need opinions mah haihhh

And kendra is still not home!!! This zhabor ah haiyooooo!

Faster come home so i might be able to tell her everything haih

Bcos I don't know where to start and how to talk about it tbh T T

Haihhhhh

if next time anyone asks me why am i single, I wish i could muster enough courage and tell them

Bcos i like flirting with a lot of guys than staying loyal for just one guy.

At least that guy hasn't appeared yet lol

Okay lah cos I've concluded alr, i actually like flirting with boys and receive all sorts of woos but give no promises lol sounds like very what like that but no lol that's just the deep dark truth that lies within me 

Okay um back to marketing lecture lolll I HAD TO TYPE THAT OUT BCOS SOMEONE ASKED ME AGAIN 

ya loh fenping i agree with you

当日子过到很平静了 你会发现你日复一日的都在做一样的事情

这个时候就会很迷茫 突然很空虚很失落

我吃饭吃到一半都可以突然间叹气感慨lol

日复一日都在做一样的东西啊！！

目标啊

我的目标是什么勒？

不知道勒 不想要很长远的还是什么的

读书？可是不是读学校的书啦 就去图书馆借书来看还是怎样 

读bible！！！

对

一天读一点！！

还有勒？ 想要活得健康点 吃得健康点 可是很难勒 虽然都是借口lol

好啦我去睡了 真的蛮累的

晚安

目标明天再想

还有哦 ys好像买烟花准备在新年放给我看 哎

他没有讲啦 他只是讲 初三晚上空出来给他 因为他要给我看的事情 晚上才可以 那就知道了啊

当姐是傻的啊lol

ok晚安哎 这些男生到底想怎样 不喜欢就是不喜欢！！！！！ 

Hii

Hi father! Today has been fun and exciting :D even tho it was abit awkward at the recruitment drive at first bcos obviously i know they are already a clique, so for me to join them it takes timeee. So I'm glad that i was still able to join their clique and have fun with them!! :p

Um and in english class hehehehe love the lovely elaine! She's so cute hahaha and she laughs at everything i do and thinks that i am super hilarious and always says 美女顾及你的形象啊！！

Ahahahha and then i would just shrug it off and continue kacau her hahaha bcos english class is just toooo boring

Hehehhehe muacks!!

Okay then right after english class jiu went to recruitment drive looorr

Idk why i felt like the chairman is like purposely ignoring and neglecting me lolll maybe it's just me thinking too much lah as usual XD 

But then there are fishball and jason! And angela and carmen and lenny and jessie! 

Carmen has the mosttt 嗲voice ever lolll i cannot tahan hahahhaa

And the rests were okay except alot of vulgarities ahahaha 

Had so so so much fun with fishball and jason XD 

And ahteoh chunyeh austin came to find me!!! Soooo excited ahahaha yay!!! Dragged them here and there wahahha 

Ummm and then the photography society de booth which is just beside ours theres this guy lol I don't even know his name 

Bcos each booth has two chairs but there are too many of us, so i was just standing then the guy was alone at his booth so he offered me his chair then at first i was like nooo then he said 哎哟你这样站住我不敢坐下来勒 loll hahaha so i sat down actually 很想坐哈哈哈哈脚很酸

Then the guy kept staring into my phone lollll pls i can see so i stopped playing with my hp and the next thing he did wth scared me

He put his arms on my chairs lol you know that action right! 搭在你的椅子上omg i was like wth?!?!?! But okay stay normal stay stay stay ahahahah

Then after a while he started talking to me some rly lame stuffs some not so lah then i stood up when his booth's second member came then only he drew his arms back lol

And it wassss fun except for the part where my chairman uploaded a rly unprepared and ugly picture of me haih hahahahaha and when he passed his ipad to me so i can tag myself i still pretended like i cannot find myself BCOS I DUWAN TO TAG MYSELF HAHAHA SO UGLY but then he said impossible ahhhh then took the ipad and asked me to type in front of him haih sad hahahahah

Like that lorrr then after that went to two more tutorials! Then wait chris to come and take me

Played this rly stupid and silly game he installed for me lolllll 

South park adventure like that de hahaha

Then we had dominos to deliver to 1246 then dota AND DOTA WITH MY BRO HEHEHHEHE MUACKS 

I miss him so so much lah haih

Then reach home alr lor

And hor ytd i think sunday lah chris brought donuts from ipoh to me sia soo nice hahaha big apples one

But i only had 1 then shushan enjoying the rest lolll

But still got some left lah i think tmr i eat hahaha

Yayyyyy lalalalaa

Thank God for family!!! Thank God for every person he placed in my life :D

I want to act like him

我知道我不喜欢人家怎样对我

So i also must not do the stuffs they do to me! 

虽然他们有些会故意忽略你啊不把你include进他们的clique 可是没关系！我相信我是闪亮的钻石！哈哈哈哈 遮不住遮不住光！ 好自恋好自恋天啊哈哈哈哈

Do my best to not neglect anyone ahhhh 

Jiayou jiayou God help me with this ah! Love you lots!

Love you sooo much my jesus baobao hahahaha muacks 

Continue to guide me in my life and be a better person :D

In jesus' name i pray and ask! amen :*

Now i am scared...... Wth 

Okay i already regret those blogposts i wrote a week or more ago

Lol everytime hor dou shi like this one

The deeper and longer you know of the guy, the more disgusted and dislike i grew towards him

This routine is forever the same one, just different guys lol

Then why ah why does every guy around me has to be this clingy?!?!?! Very annoying leh i go where guan ni pi shi ah omg

Why must i tell you why must i be with you why must i only go out with you and not others WHY

I AM MINE LAH OKAY I BELONG TO NO ONE CAN BU YAO CONTROL ME OR NOT

ZZZZZZ

Xialan leh you ask you duwan go

Haoxiao lor i alr agreed to go out with someone else then how??? I aeroplane them for the sake of stupid reasons like you getting mad at me ah?!?!?!

Last time say bojio now jio you then duwan go

Haoxiao you said is last time lor last time i nth to do ma now i got other stuff to do cannot go CANNOT AH?!?!?!?! OMG

And please ah bu yao sai nai with me omg

....

Imagine weekern sainai at me or not walao

Duno if it's bcos of my period or not I'm so hot tempered but i always am lol

zeveryone stop being so clingy ah plsssss

Stupid wh first then jr then kushi wtf

THEN YS

THEN WK

I HAVE NO OBLIGATION TO TEMAN EVERY SINGLE PERSON OKAY I NEED MY FREEDOM I GOT OTHER FRIENDS I BU SHI YOUR FRIEND ONLY LOR OKAY

Ugh

So pekcek

....

And the more i be with chris the more he knows me and he never gets disgusted with me i wonder why lol

And he bu hui over clingy also that's why we can still be friends until now leh seriously 

He always knows when to stop and knows the limit lol

And for ho shushan right 

With her i can never get mad at her for more than 10 mins okay la 1 hour hahahaha

Ok sign off with a sweet note!!!

Finally using my planner lol

Byeee 

My eyes red red red hair also red red red

Tan wei wen

Miss chen wei wen so much?!?!?

没有其他意思啦哈哈哈 单纯很怀念很想念 因为曾经无所不谈哪

然后还有小小暧昧了一下 虽然让我痛不欲生很久 lol

可是现在完全忘了哈哈哈哈 

很喜欢他勒他很废 一直打来跟我讲废话 :( 

Lol 再见到他一定要好好的squish他一下两下

～～～～～ 

lol 

哈哈哈哈 晚安😂

So many 4.0's around me, yet I'm satisfied with my own 3.81 lol

What's the big deal of your pathetic 3.81 lah T.T 

Even though i was really super glad that i got 3.81 haiz, maybe if my coursework marks got higher things would be different :(

Hoping that this sem i could get higher coursework marks and pull my results up lor

And hor my cgpa very lan alr leh aiyo, can retake sem1 or not one ah T T

世界上没有卖后悔药啊～～～～

But still thank God for my results!! :D and for fixing idk what's wrong with my laptop ahahah thanks ah!!

I also pray for longer and small tempered ah T T lol hahahahaha

Jiayou jiayou !!! 

Bestfriendzone

Hello, everybodeh, i just got friendzoned lol

We talked alot, he talked about how he wanted to stay single until he graduated. He thought that we're (not the two of us we but all the people at our age) not mature yet and he is scared that going into an r/s will ruin his academic performance (yes he's a total nerd omg) 

He said if he and his gf somehow got into an argument during exam period, then die, he won't have the mood to study thats what he meant by dangerous

I asked, what if you met someone you realy like? Can't possibly miss diao her right?

If she likes me too then i also like her, i guess she will understand him and wait until both of them are graduated, then they go into a r/s.....

I was like how!?!? That to a girl is like 登天难 how to not be insecure without some real r/s???? And just wait till you graduate???

And he said, good stuff worths the wait right?? 

Lol 

And we started the fb stuff that first impression stuff cos he asked me my first impression to him so i asked him back and there's a question saying 认识之后觉得怎么样 : an asshole after we mix, and we can be the best opposite gender friend

Below is me trying to be cheerful wth lol by acting like nothing's wrong but yea everything's wrong

What do i do??? Does this mean i have to wait till both of us are graduated then only we can be together wth

I JUST GOT BEST FRIENDZONED I KNOW HOW CHRIS AND EVERYONE ELSE FEEL NOW SO DAMN PATHETIC 

I just realize how cruel i am to act like gkc  to chris. Chris is realy good friend to me, but we clearly know that he wants more than that which i cannot give.

So I'm like constantly reminding him that i took him as my really good friend, even on his bday.... 

How would he feel T T

Haiz sorry sorry

Love is so complicated

Wrong time right person

Right time wrong person

And after years when i look back to my ridiculous blog post, how would i feel lol

I just risked my life to ss that piece of essence from our snapchat bcos when you ss he'll get a notification saying that I ss'd the chat lol 

Yay me

Goodnight probably going back to sleep

I woke up bcos the mosquitoes stung me like no need money lol really is no need money kthxbai

hi

ya i cannot believe i'm using my laptop to blog either
i'm like the most sotong person on earth, okay i believe there are people more sotong than me i'm just exaggerating okay~
okay so i lost my lightning cable over the past months i forgot when and i lost my earpiece recently
what the hell T.T

but okay! say something that i am very very glad about :D
I've got band 5 for my muet, the highest is band 6! omg can you believe it?!?!?!?!? the news said we can check on 5th January, so once the clock ticks past 12am, i immediately went to check but no :( still not available yet! so i slept first, set my alarm at 10am so i could wake up and check.
my alarm rang only once and i got up!! bcos really very nervous and wanting to know my results very badly lol i use very a lot XD
okay and i was still in kind of a sleep coma, and the website was lagging bcos i guess a lot of them are checking but thank God it didn't crash! :D and when it finally finished loading, i really was shouted 'what?!?!?!' and sat up and was like woah woah woah this is happening this is really happening
okay fyi bcos i really didn't put much effort into the exam... i prepared only like day before the exams >.>
so i wasn't hoping for much..... i was hoping for over or equals to band 3 and i'm satisfied already. plus i wasn't confident lah, don't know how well or bad i did so i was really shocked lah!!!
Thank God thank God!!!! All glory to you :D

Hope that i'll have the same feeling on 7th T.T......
haiz if only this surreal feeling happens on 7th too sob
I hand everything unto your hands le ah God :(
albeit still worriedddd x.x

and and and hahaha
okay lah not worth mentioning but
but
still hen xiang say

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And here comes where your clique 起哄 for nothing ahahahah

Exactly, for nothing lol

You already know for good to never think too much or too highly of him right right right lol

That show you how much he is hahahah, okay can I'm talking nonsense right here yes and no okay gbai 

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That damned ego sigh

But I'm not even sure what is right or wrong to do now 

:(

Idek why am i troubling over this like seriously 

2015

I wanna apologize to my parents because:

1. I haven't been taking care of my body since sem break :( have been sleeping really really late or rather early in the morning lol bcos of....

2. I lose my temper very easily :( albeit i think it's better than last time BUT STILL

3. They are so so so selfless and all I'm being is just selfish ;(

Sorry sorry ah papa mama, sorry that you two have to tolerate my shit even when I'm so old already :(

Cannot imagine that it's the year where I'll become 19.... It's 2015!! It's so surreal?!

I'm glad that i went to the countdown party!! It made everything better :)

Haiz I'm so guilty of sleeping late rn even tho it's alr 4am and I'm still awake haiz

And even if I'm not awake i would be playing dota and didn't help her with any chores ;(

So ok my resolutions will be to sleep before 12! Or okay 1!

And stay at home as frequent as possible

And help my mom with chores!

And be more patient

And be more selfless!

Imitate the Lord who created you, love your neighbours like yourself! I'll be needing constant reminders for these but still!!

Thank you for everything!!! And i pray that my family will be guided to the right path and may you bless them in every way!

Also pray for my brothers and sisters who might be lost and goal-less in their lives. 

Please guide the lost lambs back on their tracks!

In Jesus' mighty name, I pray! Amen 

Sry not all of them ahhh