Miane miane hajimah~~~

我只会这句也只想表达这句

要怎么办勒

怎么办勒

么办勒

办勒

勒

不能就一直保持这样子吗～～～

为什么～～～～～～～～～

为啥～～～～

非常困扰 

我决定先睡觉

今天超愧疚的

不过我决定让今天成为最后一天！我玩也应该玩够了吧！！

我会加油的 😠 晚安各位

Hi

Bye

Happy girl signing off eheheh ^_^ 

I will update soon! Now really have to sleep le ehehe goodnight 

Long updates

Hi I don't know what happened to the wifi bcos since it's like 3am i doubt there's anyone using the wifi except for me and my data died on me.

But still am i going to blog this lol 

Okay all set, let's go!

That day went to watch movie with fishball

Ok that time i said fishball fetched me with car right, ends up that car is not his (yay i got it right lol) and then he said that if I'm okay with motorcycle

Of course i am okay lah i always sit weekern and jiaseng de motor what

But i was reluctant to go by his motor bcos: 

1. I dont dare to sit on just someone else's motor lah that time weekern one i was also damn cautious and nervous about it and like after they reassured me for the tenth thousands time i finally agreed lol

2. It was raining and doesn't seem like it will stop 

Then i told him, what if the rain won't stop? He said then he'll try to ask his friends to fetch us or what

Ends up that friend who is going to fetch us there joined us (MAJOR YAY) And then i knew him in the interaction day too and it was good it wasn't awkward at all bcos  i think Jason is there for a good cause

Cos if there are just the two of us, he will be so damn initiative and I will surely be stunned as i already was when Jason was alr there.

Ya so i think Jason's presence is just like milo powder on top of a cup of milo ice.

Then during the movie was okay bcos he didnt try anything funny or try to grab my hands or whatever ahahahahah

Just one that he put his wallet in my bag and peeked at my phone's screen lol

Am okay with all that bcos I've met worse ones.

Then ytd, aiya monday, i told him I'm going to return him his hard disk and i forgot he is having his study week alr

And my monday class won't end until it's 6 o'clock 

Soi told him, nevermind lah change it to tuesday lor, then you don't have to wait for me until 6 mah

Then he was like super persistent on waiting for me until 6 o'clock and i was annoyed so i said gah whatever anything you like lol

Then ENDS UP YUAN LAI HE WANTS TO FETCH ME HOME ARGH LOL

He never told me beforehand or whatsoever he prob wanted to 'surprise' me with a drive back home wtf fml 

Then i was super shocked i was like no nid lah for what i can take bus, then he was like insisting it's okay la i fetch u

Then i said OU but it's raining ahaha too bad 

Then he said it'll stop by 6pm dun worry

HOW CAN I NOT WORRY LMAO

Then i finally escaped with the excuse of having dinner with kendra and shushan so he cannot fetch us with his motor right right 

Then he hint hint wanted me to invite him to our dinner also but i act like I didn't get his hints muahahaha and didn't ask him

Ofc duwan la with him will be sb awkward not like he's my bf or what lah right 

Okay end of fishball story

Tomorrow I'm going to watch movie with chris

JUST

THE

TWO

OF

US

And i cannot say no i cannot turn him down bcos he's been super nice to me lah T T

What can i do, i feel so miserable for myself fml wtf

I think ah if my blog is seen by the two guys right they would hate so much aahhahahah so you guys please keep this a secret ok

Cos chris is, quite, lame

We don't have the mutual topic lah except for classes or assignments or finals

Then it's super boring

But he helped me with so so many stuffs and I don't think I'm supposed to turn him down so i said yeah!

And i dont think he'll try anything funny either cos he is chris lol 

And i think he really 很看重 tomorrow night or tonight lol cos he macam want to be very prepared and stuffs and it makes me very stressed out 

全部都是我自找的。，。。

Okay nvm at least i got to watch mocking jay which i really wanted to!!

Ok ok ok everything is ok

Ofc lah luckily i am me lor if i am the others they cannot handle this one i tell you ahahahahah

I'm being super naggish rn bcos I'm kinda sleepy but I'm not sleeping that's why 

Btw that time we played with a team of mmu guys (dota2) 

Then they were super lc at first but they ended up losing!!!! Yay so we were quite happy but we didnt so anything lc or what lah 

Then they asked for a rematch today lmao and claimed they were lagging blablabla

I really hate boys like this leh, lose then lose lah always blame their line one

If he is really lagging then my fault lor

But just now we had another game with them and THEY LOST AGAIN MUAHAHAHHAHAHAHA

see lah ahahah but they never claimed they are lagging alr

And they are having a third match just now but i didnt join 

Haiz still put their clan logo sumore beh tahan these boys

Ok goodnight finished updating eheheh

Will update tmr de movie night ok lol

Ok ok I know you are not interested but i am interested im recording ok

Oh and btw that time our group presentation our tutor specially pointed out that kendra and i are doing a good job ^_^ so happy hehehehe 

Okay goodnight 

刚突然知道那件事情啦 @leah ko哈哈哈

我还是很吃惊啊

没有任何想法了啦现在放心

只是很难得吗 他居然还会想那么多 考虑那么多 lol

我一直以为在考虑在想的只有我而已 没有想到他居然也是那种考虑了很多才决定断绝来往的

哈哈哈哈 很惊讶啦！人不可貌相是不是lol 

然后他记得那些小细节我很感动咧～～～～ 因为我身边的男生 维肯还有家成 他们在N年前就知道我有两只手表 一直黑一直白 可是每次我突然带另一只的时候 他们都会很惊讶的问我 你有两只手表？！ 然后再次评论哪只比较漂亮

-.- 

所以记得小细节的男生在我这里少之又少也～～～～～～ 所以给我感叹一下😂

借你们看我dota的壁纸 漂亮吧哇哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈 

还有我qop的set 哇哈哈哈哈哈

不要太羡慕我哦～ 

I didn't know this would bother me so much :'( 

It'll be the first birthday I spend without my family. It used to be so insignificant when they celebrate my birthday with me.

Because they are always there, always by my side; and i took it for granted.

And this year, this birthday, there'll be no them around to celebrate anymore.

This year I'll have to spend my birthday at this place without you people :'(

I miss my clique, i miss how their old trick which works perfectly everytime to all the birthday girls.

I miss my close friends, how they would buy cake for me and celebrate with me.

I miss all those people who care about me, who doesn't just use their mouths to showthey care, they act.

:'(

I'm so darn sad 

Look at my dark eye circles omg

Tmr its finally my turn for public speaking :'(

So nervous so scared dont know what to do 

So God, please help me? X( to overcome the nervous feelings and to remember my scripts....... 

Ok goodnight 

Since when did i get so bad at expressing myself 😂

Ah i guess this always happens when i realized I'm just being a retard lol

And i refused to let people agree that yes u r a rEtaARD!!! 

Idk im so confused rn and i hav a presentation tmr i havent prepared my slides nor scripts bcos im tired af...

But im still tapping on my phone lel oh wellzzzzzzz

Tmr waking up at 8 i better go n slp le bye 

Friday got public speaking somemore omg what should i talk abt!!!!

Should i rly talk about period pain haiz but i wished that more ppl would know about KONY :(

Its not like i could do anything abt it, jus hope that more ppl will be aware of it...

I decide tmr :) goodnight 

Hi

It's always been the same routine

It's not that I don't know

It's not even close to that

It's just that I am

Just stupid

Bye

KAMSAHAMIDA

真的kamsahamida你们出现在我的生活中 :D 

谢谢那些无时无刻都可以让我诉苦然后不嫌我烦的☺️（就算你嫌我烦也不要现在讲出来ok）

谢谢那些对我真的很好的！不管你们是抱着什么intention甚至没有intention的

kamsaheyo 🙆💕

哎呀我讲一下 就是hor 我们dance club要办一个蛮大型的event的 然后我就想去申请当helper囖 然后需要interview可是interview的时间又clash到我的workshop ==' 所以kamsahamida fishball帮我跟chairman讲了一下～然后就让我先interview了呵呵呵谢谢！

然后谢谢chris居然还记得我的电脑需要带去ipoh service因为连我自己都忘记了。。。然后跑去我家拿我的电脑带回ipoh T.T 虽然那间店很刚好的没有开然后还讲下个礼拜可以再帮我☺️ 

然后谢谢fishball 啊哈哈哈讲到这个就很好笑 因为我就和lewis在等巴士回家 刚好我和他就在wechat然后他知道我在等巴士之后就讲我现在来载你 == 然后我的巴士已经刚好到了我就说不用了啦巴士到了 然后他讲 我已经出来了勒 所以很无奈的呆在bus stop等他来载啊哈哈哈哈 超好笑的啦 可是还是谢谢你来载我啦

然后谢谢维肯嘉诚～～～ 因为你们有女朋友了啦所以你们一个category啊哈哈哈哈

谢谢你们冒充我男朋友帮我赶苍蝇lol

然后一直载我载来载去😂然后带给我无比的欢乐哈哈哈哈哈 

然后伟安lewis你们一个category！谢谢你们啦 每次都超照顾我的 有时候会当成理所当然的事 可是我会好好反省的！！

然后苍蝇们也感谢你们啦 让我感觉到被需要的感觉哈哈哈哈 

然后爸爸妈妈！！！！好想回家 :( 我刚才和他们webcam家里很热闹勒 然后我房间整个就是大对比 好想回家呀～～可是我知道我回家的话又回嫌很吵的肯定哈哈哈哈

然后你们这群有在看我的blog的一个category啦～～～ 你们就是那种就算不常见面 然后有些不常聊天 可是对我依然很很很很重要！！

所以i pray that all of you are doing well!!!! 

然后最后的就是

我生日要到了 哈哈哈哈XD

Dongdong's kittens!!!! ☺️ damn cute oneeeeeee

Picture with the tired mommy

Met a lot of new new new faces recently!!! :D Thank God for the opportunity!!! 

I hope you all are doing well too <3 :D

Yes i never go to sleep as i mentioned but yes i am going to now i feel settled ☺️ 

Goodnight!!!

Interaction Day

Ok in case u dk i went to our club (i joined the dance club in UTAR) de interaction day last Sunday :D

And i was very lucky and blessed and grateful because my friend said he could fetch me to school, or else I'll just have to walk to school..... Bcos no bus on Sunday :(

So since he came to fetch me all the way from westlake i suggested we have breakfast together so he doesnt come as in vain as he would ahahah or so i thought. 

Then we ate until about 10.30 which is quite late alr cos the event starts at 10 ahahah so he left me at Block K and he said later what time pick you up? I was damn gan dong lah!!! T T thanks ah chris!! 

Then i walked in and saw everyone sat in groups alr then super awkward cos everyone is staring at me like i have three eyes lol then ariel (yes her name is ariel so cute ☺️) asked for my name then confirmed which group i was supposed to be in and drew a symbol on the back of my hand then she said

Ok go and find your group

And i was like how????? Lol super confused and she said go and look for people who have the same symbol

THEN AWKWARDLY I need to go to groups by groups and ask 'can you let me see your hand?' Lol ahahhaha

Then a guy i knew before this v nice ah thank you fishball!!! He asked me to show him my symbol and then showed me where my group is eheheh

Then they were playing a tempo game which was so damn hard for me lah cos i was just briefed then they start alr sob

If you lost twice you'll need to accept a dare suggested by your group!

Then yes i lost lol then my dare was

TO HUG OUR CHAIRMAN FROM BEHIND ☺️☺️

DAMN XING FU LAH OUR CHAIRMAN SO HANDSOME AHAHAHAH NOT A DARE AT ALL?!?!

Okay la count as dare also cos in fromt of every groups then i very paiseh ahahha

Then everyone cheered and clapped like that when i hugged him ahahha 

The funniest thing was how my chairman said thank you to me omg so polite i like!!!!!!

He got gf alr lah so sad haiz ahahah

And then the rest of the day was so fun?!?! The members were soooo friendly and not arrogant AT ALL ☺️ 

So happy ahahaha

Very lazy to talk about the rest of the events bcos the climax is over alr hahaha

Oh and my group leader hen xi huan high 5 me ahahah very funny

Then chris came to pick me lor then we went to have dinner (again i suggested so he doesnt come in vain hahahah) and then he sent me back home!

Ok sunday was fun

Tmr im goin to the weekly featured class!!! Hopefully my stomach will behave ah, dont suddenly period pain tmr argh haiz 

And going to the interview (sort of) of the committee recruitment drive of the nee event our club is going to make!

Even tho it's going to be held in June 2015 lol

And i xiang join the icebreaking telematch de committee leh! Duno recruitment drive over alr or not ahaha! Sounds like a lot of fun ☺️ 

Okay i go to sleep already yor~

Need to finish our english assignment ASAP and then also prepare my public speaking speech first! Hehe goodnight tata muacks!

I miss you God!!! 

感触很重 却不知道为什么

明明一大堆事情等着我去解决 可是就还是没有在解决lol

就想打字嘛现在

还有我很喜欢instagram最新的updates勒

我不知道android的是不是这样

可是instagram的很漂酿 ☺️

Eheheh so cute 

Pls tell me what do u think of this

Do u think we can/should be mad at ppl who read ur texts n not reply??

Im def guilty of this but in pretty sure all of u r too XD so dun deny ok

But im curious ah, how many of u think that we have the rights to b angry at the ppl who read texts n not reply or 已读你 generally

Sometimes when i got annoyed ppl read me right i wud start to question myself like lol y da heck u angry for him/her not replyin u lol like ppl hav their lives too right not like they hav all their times for u duh!!!! 

But sometimes it gets overboard like he initiated somethin and then when u reply he stopped and u r like wot????? Am i rly that uninteresting like wtf u tryna tell me ok i geddit u v cool u v zhuai u don reply to texts ahehehbyenyenye u v cool very cold 

I hate this kind of guys srsly lol

And currently this kind of guy is limfangqian and ruili said he is using bad boy technique LOL which i found funny and correct at the same time

He v funny lah asked me someth i ans then he read me sia i got furious lmoa hahahahah 

But depends lah if ruili tricia leah or other closer friends nvr reply me i would jus spam hahahah spam until they read or spam until im sure they r not online and not available to reply me 

So i wont get mad actually if i spam 

But sometimes if v ridiculous i wont bother to spam like lol wad u wan wadya wan from mi~~~!!!!

Ok lah i m no one to say this cos i keep read others sry tricia leah ko and others if i forgot sry 

Im gna change dis habit ok

And with limfangqian right u nid to play the who is the last sender of the day game which is stupid but i cant afford to lose

Like if he ask me i reply and he read means i bcom the last sender and i will b very upset and unhappy and when he finally initiated another chat I WILL READ HIM HAHAHHAA U R THE LAST SENDER LOSER LMAO 

Ok 2am rants dun take it to ur heart o i still love u human beings u all mean alot to me each n evry 1 of u so if i nvr reply u jus spam me ok! Spam i will reply

But u spam too frequently i will hate u hahahaha

Bb lah muack muack 

I FEEL AWFUL T.T

BUT IM GOING TO SLEEP NOW

GOODNIGHT

MOM I LOV U I REALLY DO :'(

I FEEL SO SO BAD ARGH FOR NOT STUDYING AT ALL

I WISH I COULD CALL U RN SO U CAN EASE MY PANG OF GUILT :'(

*edit

Btw I've always had this thought for quite some time and I don't find it correct (?) to speak about it hahaha

And I've just decided to do it!!! rEBEL

Ok so you know how my christian friends would always tell me the exact same thing (diff words but same meaning) (And no i appreciate them v much for telling me these cos they make me feel at ease~ so thank u if u ever told me this ok u da bes!!!!! Muack )when they know im havin a test/paper

'Don't be too stressed out! Leave everything to God!'

Sry nt trying to b rude but i think this post is nothing but rude lol ok just my own opinion

I personally find it unsettled (放不下心) when people tell me that leh, bcos if i never study enuf right, no matter how hard i let go and let goD and leave everything to God, my results would still be bad, right??? If im wrong pls correct me ok cos im confused

And sometimes i feel like im using God to ease my guilt? To hide the fact that i did not study hard enuf and like ok faster say leave it to God then can alr 

Im not saying u guys or the others ok jus pieces of my thoughts ok 

Imo i think the more proper phrased words should be 'do ur best and leave the rest to God'

Ok maybe doesnt make much sense to u hor but if u nvr try hard u nvr study no matter how badly u left things to God u still cannt score well right?? Correct me if im wrong ah cos i nvr came across people who nvr studied (at all) and scored well one leh

And jus another piece of my rebellious thoughts lol haha i found out ah if we got good results right no matter it's by chance or what right I'll always thank God first, which makes me wonder cos i nvr blame God also if my results were bad i will at most blame myself for not studying hard enuf i nvr go like God y u no bless me!!!

And this amuses me hahahha 

Mayb bcos i think God can CHOOSE to not let me have good grades??? So when i got i thank God but then if my grades werent good i wont blame Him cos he gets to decide? 

Am i right pls enlighten me lol im so stupid bcos i cant slp zzzzz

And 

I FEEL AWFUL T.T

BUT IM GOING TO SLEEP NOW

GOODNIGHT

MOM I LOV U I REALLY DO :'(

I FEEL SO SO BAD ARGH FOR NOT STUDYING AT ALL

I WISHED I COULD CALL U RN SO U COULD EASE MY PANG OF GUILT :'(

MUET

Hi, I'm having my three MUET papers tomorrow morning.

And i have several troubles to be troubled  lol hahaha

Okay firstly the first paper is at 8am but the earliest bus shift we have is at 8am, and it won't reach UTAR until it's around 8.50am. SO I CANNOT TAKE BUS

And i have a few choices ☺️ 

A. I could go and talk to the tesco guy (but I would've to initiate the chat first so this choice is so hard to make hahahha) and ask him to fetch me to school since he's also having MUET at the same time with me

B. Walk

CAN I NOT??? T.T but if no choice still have to lah, the weather would be cool but I'll have to wake up super early :(

And secondly I haven't started studying lol I'm such a disappointment lol hahahaha

But I'm going to! Soon :p

And thirdly there'll be a lot of events for me to attend, i suppose? Okay lah more than usual lor

Tomorrow i have muet

Sunday i have the dance club interaction day

And monday i have the hogwarts themed christmas dinner LOL it's only the beginning of November and a christmas event is already going to happen lol

And ah i think i should clarify abit even tho people who usually think so don't even read my blog 

I still DO study lor, I'm not really a GENIUS becos i still put in effort but just not as much as the others. And i think the marks i get is reasonable??

And when i get really frustrated with a tesst upcoming and i happen to rant to them.

Tons of people just go like aiya you no need study one lah you okay one lah you sure okay de

And at a point, sure i do feel happy and glad and proud lmao no when people say that bcos it makes me feel smart ;) even if I'm not but that's worth arguing 

But at some point where I'm really frustrated and i rant and people tend to go like that, and there will be two scenes

1. IM NOT A GENIUS I SUCK IF I DONT READ (duh) SO STOP SAYING I V SMART NO NID TO STUDY 

2. Ya lo i v smart one i shut both of my eyes i also can score A+++++ (zhong dian is i still can write with my eyes shut, bu cuo right?)

Lol hahaha but I receive comments like that for like a million times and I'm usually used to it so i just decided not to rant to anybody and starts reading like now?

This is an exception tho hahaha

Ok i go study/procastinating 

And this post i never bother to use grammar so don't attack me ya darlings

Oh and ya i used to think that bae means baby or babe

But no.

It actually means 'before anyone else'

MIND BLOWN LOL

CANNOT SIMPLY USE ALR COS I DONT PUT ANYONE BEFORE MYSELF?!?!?

Ok la no my parents lor

Hao bb i go study/procastinate hahahahabb

Oh and we went to kiap dolls 

AND WEVE GOT FOUR OF DEM XDXDXDXD SOO ADDICTIVE

How many times did i say bye alr 

PAP when i was havin lecture ok

Big nose but i lovvvv :p i think my mouth looks so cute here and u r goin to stare at them ew gross hahahaha ok lah bye for real!

觉得好困

feeling 恢复能力很快

看了一下淘宝 觉得世界真的是无奇不有啊哈哈哈哈
不是说他的东西很多 是说不管以前你讲的什么你绝对不可能会买的东西 你到最后还是有可能会买 就像我这样~ 哈哈哈哈
那时候明明说死都不会买那样的书包 突然就有可能了哈哈哈哈
世界真的好奇妙~ *白痴

刚才居然在fb遇到一个变态 问我要不要聊性哈哈哈哈 天啊 直觉下就回 好呀 怎么聊
leah ko就讲应该回 好啊！我是女性 你呢？
笑死我哈哈哈哈哈啊哈 这么有创意的回答我怎么没有想到勒！ 可能我太一心想探讨变态的世界~ 哈哈哈哈哈 我有病
最近wechat很多很搞笑很白痴的stickers啦

哎哟对了 今天一整天很烦心情很不好 为什么勒

我居然进warning list！离bar list就差不多一线之差lol
 真的蛮怕的 超怕进到bar list然后不可以考试 然后我应该会先疯掉 然后再到我爸爸妈妈
真的好可怕 我不敢ponteng了啦 可是首先！！要有好的书包先啦 现在这个太小另外一个有太大是怎样！

然后就一连串的悲剧 ptptn居然减少了15%, 我收到的打击太大了啦 然后一个人躺在床上自暴自弃lol 一边哭一边踹一边锤 然后鲨鱼竟敢跟我掉下去 还我更生气！！！！然后我就惩罚他今晚睡地板 看他下次还敢不敢被我踢下去>:(
觉得生气 哈哈哈哈哈

哎呀然后打给我妈妈 居然还没睡~~ 所以就说啊 跟任何人讲可能都无法泄气！只要跟我妈妈讲听他讲一下人生大道理 然后我还有很长的路~~ 就算了
居然生气他不要洗抹脚布 哈哈哈哈
生气的时候真的是什么都可以生气的啦！ 可是还是很生气 我一定要叫他洗啦这次我不管

明天没有课 可是我想去图书馆~ 做一下 assignment~ 读一下reader's digest~ 培养一下良好的心情哈哈哈哈哈 白痴 我吃白痴
明天12点去好了！早上要吃什么勒~~~~~

好了有一点累了我先去睡觉了tata!

What are words

Anneyeong! 虽然说太迟睡对身体不好 可是越夜越精彩啊啊啊啊 哈哈哈哈

没有啦也没有很精彩啦 就一堆白痴人来弄我开心啊 心情都会变超好der ☺️💕

Live and love!

It's so easy to say yet so difficult to achieve.

I've been into this subject for quite long and it can still intrique me nonetheless.

The subject is.... Words!

What are words, might be something you mean, might also be something you DON'T mean. Weird isn't it? 

Words can be what you really DO mean and DO NOT mean at the same time.

In another word, lies. Words you don't mean are actually lies, could be white ones, could be intentional ones.

Words do more harm than actions (not violence) do. Think ah, you can never take back what you just said, not like you can ever take back that punch you swung on that guy, but like, even if you said sorry, the words you meant are still there, hurting. Okay LAH lets just say wounds heal, right? But what about the internal wounds? Okay they do heal but it's so much more difficult than the external wounds. 

I'm starting to make no sense here hahaha but well ya,

Trying to remind myself to be kinder with words, and i hope everyone does too. Because words do make a lot of difference when we rephrase what we meant into a kinder/nicer ones.

Okay tata