讨功劳讨讨讨讨屁啦

真的很讨厌 别人每次自愿帮你之后 会时不时的提起 真的很讨厌 那当初我干脆不要你帮忙 气死

早知道你会这样子回来挖苦我 和我讨功劳 我宁愿不要你帮忙 lol

真的很讨厌很扫兴你知道吗？

下次你有事情不要找我！

就是这句话 哇靠气死我 不知道你们明不明白 可是我真的很讨厌 

我当然肯定绝对下次不会再找你帮我

求我我都不要给你帮！！！

哇靠 火真的是飙上来啊 ==

之前还有一个 讲我无事不登三宝殿 很好 那下次你就不要来找我 有事也请不要找我 没事也不要 

真的很生气 把一个人当朋友 在有需要的时候要他帮忙 居然得到的是这个也 你干脆讲不要就好了干嘛绕一圈回来这样讲我 靠

男的都可以淹掉了啦

你找我聊天的时候我有没有讲你啦 要从我这里得到什么 好感吗？！那我不是要讲你也是无事不登三宝殿 白目zzzzz

气死我！！！！！很生气！！！！

下次要讨功劳的 “好朋友” 请不要帮我 气死 还是你前面就跟我讲 你之后会讨功劳j 这样就好了 不要装到有多大气拜托 之后再讨功劳只会显得你有多小气zzzz

我要气晕了

I'm a sinner!!!

刚才本来对自己很失望的 不能说现在不失望了 只能说没那么严重了 谢谢God让我看到的那个article！！真的获益不浅啊

就是我在这里讲真的 都不敢和别人讲我是Christian 因为我不觉得自己像Christian 然后感觉自己不配 因为犯了太多罪 可是我看到的那个article真的把整件事clarify了 we humans have a sinful nature because of Adam, that's why we are always sinning. But Jesus is there, to forgive our sins as long as we repent. And this world aka Satan is trying to trick you into believing that if you're not perfect, you cannot be a Christian, becaus of the world's view towards Christians. Christians have always been seen as a perfect image, those who do not sin, who are forgiving, and who are generous. But no, no humans are perfect, that's why we're humans duh???!?! There is only our Holy God who is the perfect one, he does not sin, he forgives, he loves and he accepts. 

And yes, as I'm no one to judge anyone, I  do sin, just like every other humans. For I am just as guilty as every other human. 

对啊 我凭什么决定Christian的standard？又有谁能够说自己是纯洁的 是完美的 是不犯罪的？ 如果你觉得自己没有犯罪 你在欺骗你自己 同时也在欺骗你的神 

所以我大声地承认 向世人说 我是罪人 我犯罪 可是in the end, I repent to my God, I strive to not sin, I strive to stay pure!!!! 

我不要再judge其他人了啦怎么办 要怎么节制自己的舌头！！

我不要用同一张称赞神的嘴 来gossip别人 it makes everything else worthless.

Because your talk is cheap.

我好爱你！！！真的不知道该怎么办的时候 you showed me the right path, and tell me you're there for me, tell me I shouldn't be ashamed of who I am, tell me humans are not perfect and it's okay to sin as long as I turn back to you. 

Father I love you so much, I want to behave like you 

Father I pray that you would give me the strength to stop gossiping and judging others. Father I want to love the others like you love me!!

还有hor 你们谁知道the solutions to envy and jealousy 的 我尝试google可是好像没有能够有共鸣的 如果你们知道哪里有的请告诉我哟哈哈哈 我try翻我的youth bible！！

晚安 and my redeemer lives!!!! :D can't wait!!!! 

Going home

Yea that's right I'm going home this Friday!!! 

But when is my heart going back to Jesus, like fully? 

I'm so envious of those who went to pastor Sebastian that day de yf :( I also wanna be there and listen to his sermons again... :( 

I forgot how it is to be in a church, I haven't been to one since a month ago, or longer? And I'm ashamed about this.

I have this weird thing going on in me, I don't like to tell people that I'm a Christian, 

1. Mostly everyone don't consider people as Christians if you aren't baptized. But I do consider myself as one (not so sure now since I haven't been to church and there's nothing else to prove that I'm a Christian)

2. I don't behave like one so who am I to tell people I'm a Christian?

It's mainly about the second point.

I miss being in church... I'm finding myself excuses to excuse from church, I'm so ashamed by this

Dear lord, I miss you so so much, when's the last time that I've sat down and listened to stories of yours?? 

Father I'm so sorry, I don't know what else to say, I'm sorry for all my sins, my disobeying behaviors. Father... What should I do? All the temptations are waiting for me out there, and now I'm just hiding inside, and it takes no time for them to reach me, and eventually indulge me. Father what do I do? To be honest, I know what the solution is, but I'm not doing anything that helps. 

Father please forgive my sins, and I pray that you will bless me with the determination to go against the temptations. Father I want to behave like you, and one day I can finally tell others I'm a Christian without feeling shameful deep down. Father, I will once again tell the others I'm a Christian, once I got back to the right path. Before that, I forbid myself to say so, I'm just a bad evil girl, who doesn't obey you.

Father please help me in this tough path, because without you, I alone cannot fulfil this task, and with you, everything will be on the right path. Father please help me and guide me on the right path. I'm externally grateful to you my dear father.

And in Jesus' almighty name I pray, I pray, I pray my dear Lord, amen.

#MH17

It's kinda mainstream to do this but, it's so ko Liam gosh 

What's in their mind when they shot down the airplane? Do they not have any sympathy? This is just pure evil. What is making them so determined to do something like this which will never be forgiven? What's in their mind? What's their purpose? :'(

Father I pray for all the victims in the airplane, and all their families... God bless them :'( 

To-do list

Yea as the title wrote, I'm supposed to be here to make a to-do list of mine which I might never accomplish.... BUT NO I MUST HAVE FAITH LOL

I used might which means there's another chance that I would actually accomplish all of the tasks in my list hehehe.

So today is Tuesday, which is a public holiday for us, thus I have no school nyeeheheheh and tomorrow will be a holiday for me too LOL since I would be skipping my Economic class tomorrow WHICH takes me to my next point, I'll have a day, or half? to try to accomplish those tasks in my list :D 4PM got class then 6.30 got test omg okay let's just go to the list now

TO-DO LIST (AS IF IT'S NOT YET OBVIOUS)

1. Study Economics as I'm going to have test on Thursday fml...
2. Wait this should be the first thing, revise my maths!!! Having test tomorrow T.T
3. Um, Economic Assignment needs some alter :/
4. Accounting Assignment!!!
5. Try to finish the English tutorial! And figure out all the grammar mysteries.

Alright I guess that's all for now, too many tasks at once makes it even more impossible for me to accomplish all of them HAHA

So!!! :D

Hehehe goodnight and have fun!!

Daddy❤️

:') thank you for everything

Taobao

HI TAOBAO IS FINALLY HERE XD

Soo excited that we were supposed to sleep over at my friend's house but instead we came home just to check our parcel out DD

SO THEY CAME XD

Shark was not as big as I thought it would be but still, it's big??? I guess. 

Quite a disappointment as I thought it'd be a human-sized shark but yea it's a kid-sized shark still human hahaha anyway!! Thank you so much yongsheng!!! Even though you're never going to read this hahaha 

Thank you for being so nice to me even though I was a jerk to you and takes forever to reply you T T thanks a lot.....

OOOH AND DID YOU NOTICE MY PHONE COVER HEHEHEHE SO CUTE SO CUTE I LIEK

So this jacket I bought came along and it was shitty at first, and I was so disappointed  T T it looked like some oversized cloth when it was supposed to be an oversized jacket sob, but after these pair (my) of magic hands ironing it, it became really nice hahaha 

Luckily I didn't throw it away impulsively when I saw it ;p

It was literally a piece of green cloth lol like thrash like that you know not!!!! So disappointed but luckily I had faith!!!! Hahahaha so misused but whatever

And of course it turned into a fashion show hahaa both shushan and I started planning on what to wear on next Friday!!! YA NEXT FRIDAY WE ARE GOING BACK TO PONTIAN YAY T T T T T SO HEPI I CRAI

Dis me try to mek u no iz obersaiz

Dis pig tryna mek u tink she not pig 

Idk why i started typing like that hahahaha so mysterious 😂😂😂

My phone cover is too big and it's disturbing me to type sob but it's too cute to be removed plus I threw away my old transparent one which turned into a greenish yellow color which is seriously gross hahaha and shushan kept asking me to throw it away so I did 

Woah that was a long sentence wasn't it 

I'm cool

I'm awesome

They said I need to believe in myself so I build self esteem you know not hahahaha 

I looked so demure I cannot belib

Or am I the only who thinks so hahaha

Okay goodnight I guess tomorrow is holiday weeeee but need to go and do script lah sien so sien ugh and Wednesday and Thursday got tests wtf and I'm here living like tests don't exist in this world gosh I'm so hopeless 

BELIEVE IN YOURSELF

Wait no gosh

Believe in my God!!!!

And a little bit of myself hehehe

Love you guys lots and can't wait to see you all T T T T  

Why why why why

A little secret of mine that you can keep in your collection is, that I would try to talk to my mom whenever I felt guilty, as if it would lessen my guilt???? 

I love you mama and papa

And I love everyone, or I tried to.

Our dear housemate, just won't shut up. Or she could at least close her door and have as much fun as she likes. JUST DONT FREAKING DISTURB US WITH THE CONVO OF YOU AND YOUR BF

I DONT WANT TO KNOW THAT HE IS YOUR MONKEY AND YOU ARE HIS MONKEY AND YOU DONT WANT TO TALK TO HIM OR HOW MUCH YOU MISS HIM I DONT CARE 

shut your door geez

It's so annoying =_=

Lie or hide

You didn't have to lie, you could just tell me the truth. 

It just makes me feel disgusted when you're lying to me. And that feeling sucks when you realised he's been lying, for God knows how many times? 

It's so irritating and my mood is like instantly fell to a level that's never been so low.

Goodnight and it's my time to sleep, it said. 

很幸福

真的很庆幸认识到我们班上很可爱的kendra 和 慧欣 

因为她们 怎么说呢 我们都知道 在这个新的环境里 要认识人很难 要有自己的一gang更难 所以很庆幸 他们不会讲说 自己有朋友就够了 还介绍他们的朋友给我们认识 还带我们去他们的宿舍 

by 带 hor 他们是真的很积极邀约我们去他们的家的 那种 还叫我们去他们家过夜！！！

所以就认识了他们的housemate！ 照片都是一起去吃早餐的时候拍的

今天已经是第二次睡在他们家了的 第一次的都因为我的电话recover zzzz 结果照片都不见了 TT

现在他们在吃饭 

她们煮肉骨茶 其实没有我的份 可是他们就先盛了一碗给我 让我先吃 可能怕其他的housemate不开心吧 所以我现在在看着他们吃饭 lol 因为我吃完了 有点奇怪且awkward可是呢 

已经很开心了 :D

谢谢我亲爱的父神 让我的大学生涯 不再是孤单的两个人！！

Hallelujah! :D 

想念我爸爸妈妈 妈妈爸爸

每次睡不着会觉得很对不起爸爸妈妈 那么不照顾自己的身体 :( 可是真的毫无睡意啊 应该怎么办 唉

btw总最近生病了 其实就是昨天

然后一开始觉得哎呀不需要浪费钱去看医生 反正我对退烧药敏感 去了也不可以怎样 所以本来打算买退热贴等他自己退

等到最后实在是没办法了 感觉越来越不舒服 越来越热 那时已经蛮夜了 七点多这样 

决定去看医生

然后本来nicholas是有问我要不要去看 是我讲不要的 决定去看的时候他又没接电话 :( 到最后麻烦了住同一排的coursemate 问看看他的housemate可不可以借我们车 然后shushan载我去 

可是他housemate不知道是不肯还是怎样

她居然去fb post勒！！很感动你知道吗！！！我们不是很熟很熟的那种 还蛮不错啦可是 可是就不至于上fb借车的那种 所以真的很感谢她！！谢谢你weiying！！！

可是weiying的那位朋友来载我的时候似乎是要去吃饭的 所以我们很不好意思要他们陪我们一起等 所以就跟他们讲我们之后自己回 

心里有点失望 lol

可是到底是失望什么嘛 第一次见面 哦不 是完全没见过面然后还载你还不够好吗lol 谢谢你！！不知名的朋友哈哈哈

之后nicholas就来载我们回 

万分感谢Nicholas！！！随传随到 真的很感谢你 :D 大家不要误会人家有女朋友了ok

去看医生 居然遇到kkl的朋友 瑞俐你应该记得 Jeffrey？那个pekan的有打篮球的

他居然也读这里也 在看医生的时候看到他 本来不确定的 之后missy叫他的名字就肯定了哈哈哈 有尝试跟他笑可是他似乎没看见 shushan讲他有一直看着我们 可能也和我们一样不确定吧哈哈哈

有缘再见囖！！

医生说我只是轻微发烧。。早知道就不去看了是吗 可是我的病居然是 完全没想过的 喉咙发炎 lol？！？！ 我喉咙一点也不痛 全身痛 头痛肩膀痛脚痛腰痛肚子痛哪里都痛 就是喉咙不痛 居然是喉咙发炎 lol

给了我四个药 花了40。。。。

心很痛啊！！！！早知道就不去看了 T T

伤心 彻底

weiying跟我说 上次她跌倒 看医生可以claim学校帮我们买的保险 不知道是不是真的。。。本来我很相信的 然后超开心的 40块可以claim！！！耶！！！可是miesie突然讲 应该不可以吧？insurance是claim意外的啊 你是生病 又不是意外 T T T T T 伤心死啊 现在越想越不可能 那不是谁生病都不用钱了吗 唉 没关系明天就试试看囖 :( 希望可以

好啦就是这样 生病不在家真的很痛苦 

没有妈妈在旁边T T 

我很伤心他也很担心 早知道就不跟他讲了对吗 那种做工到一半会打电话来问我好点了没 每次接到电话都会很想哭 妈妈！！！！！！很想回家 唉 T T

到了这种时候就是会很伤心很沮丧很down的

好想家 :'( 

我要去尝试睡觉了 拜三有考试

希望眼睛睡觉起啦会消肿 

还是很庆幸你是与我同在的！Thank God :) 

附上各种白痴照 没办法他们都是有女朋友的 拍了也不可以放上网 悲伤哈哈哈哈

朋友们不要被我的照骗骗了 我还是那副很欠扁的脸 还是你们都不曾被骗！！！！哈哈哈哈

Ignorant

做了很白痴的事情 不应该回的

想要跟人家讲 发现好像没人可以理解 

这里挣扎一点 那里挣扎一点 发现无法释怀 

闭上眼睛希望睡得着 可是

不想再讲

就是所谓的

谈不来就是谈不来 怎么勉强都没办法的

Dear Father, I thought you've put an end to my mental suffering, why?? Why must I face this kind of challenges? 

How much time am I supposed to get to put it down again?

:'( 

I feel so sorry for myself, and stupid, and idiotic 

Ola

Instant picture wth hahahahha

Hi it's me, Lazy!!! Hi!!!!

Lol

I'm again wasting my time doing nothing, since playing with my handphone is literally nothing lol

Arghhhhhh

I'm so wasting my time and I couldn't put down my phone T T

Okay now I'm going to put my phone down and start reading something, even though it's 1213 now 

I slept in the evening just now, therefore I'm not a bit tired siao liao no need to sleep liao later 

Okay I shall go and work hard!!! Jia you 

I looked really fat in this picture lah cos of the angle hahaha but it's so natural I like 

In case you guys miss me too much hehehe

This one very pretty very fake lol hahaha 

And this too very zi ran but too ugly to post on any social media so here it is hehehe

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