WHYYYYYYYY

Have this sudden urge to change everything! Haiya everything is so surreal. SURREAL!!! School has been good, since we just had 4 days without school continously hahahaha!! Malaysia has the most holidays I think, BEST COUNTRY EVER. Not when you think of another side of it...........

Why am I on this earth ah??
Why am I living??
Why am I typing??
Why am I thinking what i'm going to type later lol! hahaha
Why should I study?? People told me reading is good and good results makes you better, but why??? Why all the things that people assumed good and beneficial sometimes don't look like what they supposed to be???? Who said you must get good grades so you'd be rich??? That is just a statement by the others mah!!! Why should I listen to it??? People assumed reading is good then helps alot in your future. Really??? Really meh????? There's people that didn't get good grades when they were in school and now they're rich also mah!!! Lucky?????? WHY SHOULD I READ WHY SHOULD I EAT WHY SHOULD I SLEEP WHY SHOULD I WEAR UNIFORMS WHY SHOULD I WEAR SHOES WHY SHOULD I WEAR CLOTHES WHY SHOULD I BUY CLOTHES WHY SHOULD I PLAY FACEBOOK LOL WHY SHOULD I TYPE USING KEYBOARD WHY SHOULD I DO MY HOMEWORK UGH WHY SHOULD I OBEY MY TEACHERS WHY WOULD MY PARENTS LOVE ME SO MUCH.

Why are we on this earth. Who am I?????? Who are you?
Aiya headache lah think of this!!! == Still have to do my homework and carry on like this question never exists. But it does, it exists cuz you can see it in my blog mah! hahahahahah, I hope I made your head aches also ok, cause mine aches so much. IT'S NOT FAIR IF I'M THE ONLY ONE THAT'S THINKING ABOUT THIS QUESTION!!!!! ok last
why are you reading this blog of mine hahahahaha OH WAIT STOP!!!! STOP!!!!!!!!!

WHY ARE YOU CLICKING THE RED 'X' LEH??? loves <33333 hahahahahah="" p="">

Thank-yous

Hi it's the midnight bella again, a.k.a the emo bella. I just finished doing sit-ups and the maximum times that I can do is 25! LOL ahahhaha! I'll improve, I WILL!!!!! Um, I just want to rant. :<

Thank you ah, for making me feeling out of the box!!! So I can learn to be independant.
Thank you also, for making me feeling so awkward!!! Nothing to learn from here hahahaha.
Thank you again!!! For showing me what's wrong and not to do..........
Anyway, I just want to tell you that, whatever you did to me is not worthy at all. Man I know you purposely did that one ok, don't go 'round and act all innocent, ''Huhhhh?????? What's wrong????? Why she say me liddat?????''

Chinese New Year is coming!!!!! Ohohahahohohohahaha, one week holidays! Friends!!! Families!!! Angbaos (EMPHASIZED)!!!! Can't wait to celebrate Chinese New Year! Ah also got bad news, I think our first exam would be held in March, which means after CNY lah. #MUSTGETGOODGRADES.
Speak about hashtags, hahahahaha!!! Wern and me had so much fun just now, cannot stop laughing at .......... hahahahahah!

Aiyo sometimes I'm just really confused about everything. but there are just things that you can't tell the others, even if you wanted to, those are just, secrets???? Not really secret also leh, you just don't know how to tell the others, it'd be really weird if I told that to someone else. Ya la so weird. = =

2years already ah khor ee ning!!!!!!!!!!!!! 2 years yo so fast.......

Better or worse?

Actually depends on what we think la right? 'cus things have many perspectives ma....... If you're down and blue, the things you will think of will surely be negative things right...... Sorry ah I still cannot get over my own mental obstacle....... I don't want it. :( I don't want myself to be like the other crazy women I have seen.........

I mean, still have me okkkkkkkk, but it's awkward, how? IDK LAAAAAAA. O' Lord please tell me that which path is the right way, and lead me to the way you want........ Is this class that You wanted me to be in? ;-; BUT WHY!!!! I don't want to be in that class, it might be hurtful to the others but, man that's the last class, I had the best grades out of them...... How???? How did it happen????? (cus you didn't read la ofc) Ugh who else can I blame except myself. -_-
Homework is fine leh really, why does she have to be like........... UGH it's ok I'll try to ignore everything she did ok, hopefully. :(

Hahahah we're having an exam this March, and it ONLY includes Form 5's courses!!!!! I really hope I can get well in that exam, and the first rank in my secondary school life lol hahahaha!

Life has been great, God has given me wonderful times and grace, amen!!! Yea as I said, postive thoughts attract positive results! So, everything has been better, better and betterrrrrrrrr. I hope I can solve the only problem of mine...... Well, a worse problem of mine, the transport from school to home. You can say i'm all ugh cus i don't want to walk home, OFC duwan la so hot the weather!!!!! T_T I don't wannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnt!!! God please please please help me with this problem alright? D:

There's this form I've been asked to fill in, biasiswa one, then there's the boxes for me to tick. About my religion........ Gosh I wish I can tick the box!!!!! TICK THAT BOXXXXXXXXXX DAT BOXXXXXXXX. Ugh, in my dreams............. Someday, someday...... ;-;

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WANQINGGGGGGGGG, let's forget the thing you just told me today. super scary one lor hahahahah!! Happy birthday dearrrrrrr, we've been through alot of big and small things, actually, most of them are big hhahahaha! I was so 'cute' way back then, it's really a miracle that you still want to talk and be my friend... :( You're in my list ok i got chuuuuuuuuuu~ <3 nbsp="nbsp" p="p">
Good afternoon and i want to go take a shower already ok hahahah! Oh and, serves you right H.I. < You deserve all the bad things ok......... Ok stop i'm starting to curse alr cannot!!!!! cannot curse!!!!!!!
xoxoxoxoxoxo loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee 

I'm good! :P

Eighth day since my school has started. Man it's awwwwwwwwwwful without my pet ruili. T_T But I'm lucky too, since Shushan is also in the same class with me...... She's willing to scratch my hands summore hahahha!! I thought I can never mind a second one that's willing to scratch my hands hahahah! God bless!!! Is this better? lol, i keep on thinking that one. This IS better for both of us, both me and ruili, since we can be like MORE concentrate when teacher is teaching lmao............. xd But still, I feel really down whenever I saw her sitting in the other class sobs, 我失恋了肝肝 :'(

IZ OK!!!!!!! HAHA

Ok the homework, my classmates told me that homeworks are overloaded for them, same for my friends from the other classes, but, why don't i feel like that one =.= Maybe i'm too used to rushing homework at last minute hahaha! 

A day without the internet (almost) and computer (yes) is good, i'm all good!!!!! I can survive without it, yeah, trying to get rid of this bad addict......... I still miss my friends though, imaginary friends????????? Kind of hahahaha, so creepy =.= 

There's this auntie whom asked me what is my christian name, i seriously got confused for at least 10minutes LOL. Idk what to answer leh, so i acted like i didn't hear her hahaha, so she asked again, and then my stupid brain reacted SHO SLOW. I was confused, idk should i answer yuki or bella hahahah! But i seriously prefer bella ALOT lor, but no can help alr cus she already take my name as yuki ;-; Ok la yuki is not bad also but next time if people asked ah i'll surely DEFINITELY (or no?? -_-) answer bella hahahha! PROMISE MYSELF OK. I'm bella < repeat this sentence at least 10times before i sleep. (serious) 

BRIAN!!! HI BRIAN :3 Ofc not that :3 brian ok, BRIAN FROM CANADA!!!!!! If you ever saw this post please add me on skype!!!!!!!!! bellariel27!!!!!!!!!! I really hope you can see this haha cus i don't think i can meet you on Hydra anymore...... :'( y our time so diff ugh.......!! Ok and please don't say my blogposts don't make sense liao ok hahhaha! 

Hi Ben, yes you rotten fruit hahaha! Stop being a meanass to me ok, tell me your results when you got it. RESULTS WHAT? idk hahaha no one knows ok!!! I miss you so much T_T <33333333333 div="div" nbsp="nbsp">

And three more creepers from Australia please show yourselves ok??? I would never think of google someone's name like Brian did hahahah. I bet you three googled my name also ok, stalker!!!!!! but nvm we're friends nao hahhaaah, friends unknown -coughs- 

OH AND BTW, there's a sale at plaza pelangi, ( only for readers from johor or pontian like me ok) You ask me what sale it is? Converse warehouse sale hahahaha!!!! Do go and visit ok cus im going soon with my lili also le, jelly ah????

Thank you for reading this crappy post, no? No it's not crappy at all you're crappier ya. 

Just finished my homework and i'm heading to bead now. CYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! 

xoxoxoxoooxoxoxoxoxoxo Brian <33333333333333333 div="div" nbsp="nbsp">

btch pls

Hi, it's been a long time....... ya and this time i think i'll keep low profile. ;-; Got really sad bcus of smth happened, and all i can say is, get over it and take it as a lesson. What else could i do hehehehe.
2013 started, everything is going on like it should. I'm in a wonderful class, with wonderful friends, except one. Ya and ruili is not in the same class with me.......... T_T ugh you don't know how sad i was...........
But it's okay, at least i have sushan with me hehehe! God has been really good to me, I don't know how to say this but, everything is going on smoothly, at least there's no problem now.........

I MET A JERK. YA JERK I'M REFERRING TO YOU. Hah, it's alright actually, i'm the one who fell into da sweet trap. It's ok, it's ok really hehehehehe.

i'm going to have SPM this year, which is super 'exciting' for me........... as if it is -_- I'll just spend more time on books, ( like what i always say when the school starts) and finish all my homeworks (again) and also, BE REALLY HARDWORKING (and again). I'll pray for that hehehehe! that's all for now, will try to update whenever i'm free, yes free. -_-

God bless! :3
baiiiibaiiiiiiii xoxo,