You're a sky full of stars

I have been noticing the stars in the sky these nights.

AND THEY LOOK SO LOVELY!!!

My 5s doesn't do justice for them as they look far more magnificent in real life :D

So i langsung don't take picture

But seriously ah, if someone dates me to just go and gaze at the stars at night, it would be a w e s o m e ~ ~ 

Haih midterm tests are closing in, so are assignment due dates

But here i am, procastinating at its best yay yay hooray me 

So okay tomorrow I'm going to make a new ATM card! And probably send my parcel by friday

ALSO not to forget to buy ktm tickets online omg seriously cannot forget this one .... 

And please ah i really needa start studying ALREADY GOSH 

:(

Daddy please help

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哎哟很烦欸！！！
ok啦至少解决了问题1号 帮妈妈找到人帮他了！！！ XD

1. 回去一定要去block F看scholarships available了
2. 准备mid term PLEASE
3. 去taylors的scholarship day

omg i need to and i must start to revise my mid term tests already
AND ALSO START ON MY ASSIGNMENTS

I'M SOOOOOOOOOO 没有药救了

I needa cut my time on D2 like seriously
Going back to Kampar tomorrow night, and I still don't feel school....

If I ever left UTAR and went to Taylor's, it'll be devastating
i'll have to leave my already comforted zone (lol did that make sense), and all my already closed friends (again does it???)
and enter a fresh new environment full of strangers
and start all. over. again.

and that is one tiring task and job and trouble
but i know i'll love the whole process albeit how much i complain about it now :/

okay lah haih needa push this stuff aside! nothing works if i screw up my finals this semester anyway.
!!!! you really need to start studying you lazy ass

it's very scary and also very exciting

okay i needa stop goodbye

AND I NEED TO START. STUDYING.

STUDY
OMG
START STUDYING YOU SHITHEAD

FATHER I T.T I'll just leave all my burdens and also my future unto your loving hands my dear lord
i really needa start going to church.........
father i'll just follow the paths you've prepared for me :(
if it's meant to be, it will be, right?

ok可是最后疑惑

我那么丑又那么恶劣恶心恶心加三级

为什么他们还可以喜欢我？！？！？

YES I AM FREAKING BLESSED I AM I REALLY AM

i got band 5 in muet exam all thanks to father God

I got gpa 3.8 all thanks to father God

I got valerie tricia shushan xuewern kendra jingtian and everyone to tolerate my ugly personality and my bad temper

I am very much loved by my family

I am blessed with a healthy body

I am blessed to know chris they all so I don't have to take bus or cycle or walk anymore to anywhere in kampar

I haiz duwan to say this but still blessed to know yongsheng who is treating me so nicely but i dont like him

I always tend to think that people who says they like me are very fu qian 

Okay typing in chinese

我每次都会觉得他们很假很表面

随随便便就可以喜欢我这样 我觉得很生气 你根本不知道我的人有多恶心有多坏

你就讲你喜欢我 真的觉得很恶心

你这样根本就是为了谈恋爱而喜欢的吗

你又不是真的喜欢

ok啦之前是这样想的 到现在对某些人也还是这样想

可是ys ==

他真的被我骂过气过然后他还是不放弃的那种

然后有时候心情不好也会拿他来出气他也不会怎么样==

真的很无奈 可是就真的没有机会啊 

遇到他这样一个笨蛋不知道是好是坏 对我来讲肯定是好啦 因为我都是在接受他的好 然后他就一直在接受我的不好lol

每次还是很不厌其烦的jio我出去 虽然我每次都讲不要lol

然后需要帮忙的时候他又从不推辞

好啦我真的很blessed！可以遇到这样一个大傻瓜==

用傻瓜很恶心我知道 可是他真的蛮傻的哈哈哈

所以我对之前觉得他很肤浅的喜欢我感到愧疚咯ok 哈哈哈哈

可是哎很抱歉真的不可能啊！

到了这边就会有人讲 因为你是外貌协会啊 如果他帅的话又对你那么好 我才不信你不跟他在一起

ok啦坦白上某些程度真的是这样的 可是我们性格真的也很合不来啊

他会一直因为配合我顺从我帮我这样而委屈自己

你觉得这样长久下去是办法吗！

不是嘛对不对！

而且我们观念很不同！

所以lol

害我很愧疚 你讲啦你讲你要我怎样lol

然后还有chris 我也是这样想他的一开始

可是到之后就是那种 你以为他不懂的 他其实都懂lol

比如说天气很热他知道我宁愿不吃都不要晒太阳然后就会特地打包给我这样

还有比如说我超级糊涂去到哪里东西就会乱放 然后他就会念啊 东西收好好啦这样

还有比如说我曾经想要买ebike你们如果记得的话哈哈哈 然后他就讲你算了啦你不要买 反正天气热的时候你也不会骑的

他跟我讲的时候我当下就！！！！你真聪明哈哈哈哈

而且其实chris不喜欢驾车 可是他每天都很不厌其烦的跑来我家载我 很不顺路的我跟你讲 就是需要绕一圈的那种不顺路 

虽然都是一些很小的东西

but it's the little things that count right

总是超贴心的 我讲的自己都忘记了的事情他都一清二楚！

然后只是略略提过的事情他都会记得

有时候真的还蛮感动的勒 我对他那么恶劣lol 我水瓶不见了跟他提起过 我生日他就送我水瓶了是不是很感动！

可是你要讲的话其实ys也是这样啊哈哈哈

哎呀所以讲我很幸福啦 

被着这两个笨蛋喜欢

虽然有时候真的很烦

Thank God for these angels in disguise, to be in my life, and taking care of me everyday

I don't know how long these will last, but yea! :D

有时候想到我没有办法喜欢回他们我就会感到很愧疚

我很怕我这样下去会hurt到他们还是怎样

因为我知道真的会超hurt的啦 然后就想过从此断绝来往这样 可是那样好像更不行更过分 然后我就一直很烦恼很困惑

哎

我到底要怎么办 

！

I am really damn blessed lah! 

在我想到办法之前就先让我自私的接受你们对我的好下去ok 哈哈哈哈

这篇真的很恶心 希望你们不会读到吐哈哈哈哈

可是都是我的超级真心话啦 反正也不多人知道我的blog啊

我真的需要睡觉 要5点了omg

I SERIOUSLY NEED TO GO TO CHURCH MY GOODNESS I NEED TO I HAVE TO I AM SICK == 

Why am i so ugly inside haih

What's the use of fresh and pretty and neat and clean outside when you're actually rotten inside?

:(

Haih 

I need to stop behaving like the devils :( 

Lord um, it's just you and me now... Idk if it's just me overthinking or THATS just the truth lah

But yea sorry for everything :( but i rly liked dancing and everything haih 

Bc it makes me feel confident?? Albeit might be wrong for you lah but um ya human de sinful nature made me like this :(

Haih lost my wallet today,

But I don't feel extremely sad or what lah just worried bcos my bus ticket is in it, and without it idk if i can go home tomorrow or not..... X(

Quite lazy to tell everyone lah so jiu shi the last time i saw it was in DDK3 and my friend played with my wallet and everything and then she didnt put it back properly into my bag, she just simply threw (okay ya i admit i am quite mad at her lah bcos u know people tend to find people to blame when something happens lol) and also bcos i didnt put it back properly lah so also my fault lor

So it either got took or it dropped and somemore picked up, hopefully the latter 

So father i pray :( that you'll guide me through and help me to find my wallet back 

I pray that everything will be fine ah haih

Thank you and in Jesus name i pray, amen 

I love you guys so so much

Now that i have done telling my parents i love them i can sleep peacefully

Bcos of the asian culture we have, we don't express our love to each other as often or almost never. 

And that's like the worst thing ever. Bcos all you need to survive and live better is knowing that people you love endlessly, loves you too. 

Endless love, to the best parents in the world. 

They may not be the richest

They may not be the fanciest

They may not be the most understanding

They may not be the funniest

But they are my parents

They've given me everything they have; the best they can give.

And I'm grateful for them O lord

I sincerely pray for the health of my lovely parents, and i pray that they'll get to know you in their lives soon.

It may be difficult, it may be impossible; but with you O lord, impossible are made possible.

Father I pray that they will be full of happiness and I pray that you'll bless them.

In jesus' mighty name, i ask and pray

Amen 

Those who only call upon “Heavenly Father” on Sunday, the rest of the week, they are like orphans.

This is exactly me, i am an orphan. :(

Yea I've thought about everything except that, HE IS NOT CHRISTIAN ?!?!

What is the point of everything if he's nt a christian?

Maybe bcos I'm living like a normal human without God and i focus on myself more than anything, more than God, and that's so embarrassing :<

God!!!!!!! Haihhh papa i love youuuu :(

I repent my sinful acts all over again, i pray for your forgiveness, i pray for your guidance, i pray for what's right, i pray for everything. I'll just leave myself unto your loving hands my dear Lord Jesus

I'm so sorry 

This is an endless cycle

And this is an excuse

Goodnight