在这里做工很开心 一直被称赞lol 真的还蛮天真的 只要被称赞就会一直很开心 是好事吗哈哈 可是至少工作是开心的！ (mostly)
在这里做工一直被叫美女 天使 一直被讨脸书讨号码 说真的很boost我的自信心 我知道这个很vain可是真的让我感觉很良好 可能从这个方面得到自信是错的 可是就让我这样一次吧哈哈 很好啊大家对我 很感动很感谢认识到他们
今天是easter 其实一直在想要不要去教堂 刚好是sunday 所以有service 就一直在想到底要不要去 礼拜天店里很忙 不想丢下他们lol 一方面是很懒惰交代 很懒惰解释 所以就这样了哈哈哈
可是到最后很临时的决定要去 所以就赶快通知了他们 爸爸居然很好的说可以 没有很直接讲可以啦 可是是不反对的那种 所以他来店里载我 载丽文永胜回家 在我回家冲凉然后再载我去教堂 超好的 很感谢他 下车之前也有express我的感激 希望他知道他这个小小的gesture可以让我多开心哈哈 对他来说应该是很大的gesture了哈哈 谢谢God answer我的prayer 让爸爸接受今天我要去教堂的事实 非常感谢你让我今天决定去church 心里那面隐形的墙似乎就这样轻易的 被你轻轻的吹倒 because with you, everything impossibles became possible, and I simply love it.
I love you with my heart, and I pray that you'll continue guiding me on and telling me what's correct and what's not. I thank you for that! I'm eternally grateful. Today pastor told us because if your death, we are not the prisoners of sin anymore, we are freed from the jail of sins, so whatever sins we've committed, we are saved by you, all we need to do is acknowledge your existence. You, my Lord, has given me faith, that no one is capable of doing, you give me strength when I feel weak, ask me to wait patiently and everything else.
I pray that you'll bless me with a bigger heart, so I can accept the others more easily and be a bigger person like you were. 我要做跟你一样的好人 要跟你一样做好人
真的很喜欢你 很想一直和你在一起 一直很靠近对方 真的很好 我爱你 🙆💑

Yea you would feel sad, angry, mad and even frustrated when he didn't come to find you since your attitude to him was so bad. But you know it's the correct choice, the right decision to make. Yea you feel sad he really did as what you've expected, even though duh you've already expected his reaction, but yeah, still, a little part in you still secretly hoped that he would be different from what you've expected.

I'm let down, by the truths I'm already known of. This is pathetic, but I love myself, all these stupid things I'd done actually makes me learn. So yeah

But still argh, I'm so bothered, fig this :(

Goodbye

Christ alone,
cornerstone,
weak made strong,
in a savior's love,
through the storm,
He is Lord,
Lord of all.

Lord I'll just hand everything unto your mighty hands, if you think to Germany is my route to the destination you want me to be at, then so be it! I'll just go accordingly to your plan :D
Father, guide me on the right path, bless me with faith so I could reject all the temptations I will be facing. Father this life ain't easy, it's full of temptations and difficulties. It is indeed no doubt a rough path if I depend on my own strength, but with you? Everything became possible and impossibles are made possible :)

I love you so much xo
Bring me to my knees, lord I lay me down. I belong to you!! ❤️

Itchy skin

Ok so as the title has stated, I have itchy skin, alright i'm just repeating some stupid facts that I had just stated lol.
I don't even know why am i doing this, i just thought i ought to.
I just realised i need to prepare a lot, for the scholarship interview, and i'm having A LOT of thoughts on my mind right now, and it's overloading...
i think it is again the midnight factor hehe, the factor that causes everyone to be more sensitive and emotional than ever. it's eating me from the inside
so,
argh
i don't even know how to say this, bcos it's so shameful, i don't know how others might have felt about it, but for me, it's just endless shame zzzz
why would i even think about it? the differences are just too many to be counted, i don't know zzzzzz
i'm just thinking too freaking much again, it hasn't even happened yet, and here i am, worrying over nothing lmao.
like ji ren worried that the sky would fall apart
and i'm the ji ren , gosh.

oh and i really want to improve my english skills! them verbal skills, i just don't have chance to freaking speak english lol, they'll say you're acting all banana-ish, where else i'm just trying to improve my freaking language skills.

i've been so happy lately, that i've forgot how this shit felt.
i love you guys!!!! muacks!
I love You more, more than anyone else :) I can't wait to see you this weekend!

argh there goes my RM15 sunscreen lotion... punishment for being cheapskate??? hehehe
I want to talk to every single person that i have once befriended, where are you guys? how are you guys? I'm fine!!! and i miss every single one of you :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY XIAO HUI <3 affected="" all="" always="" and="" at="" be="" being="" for="" forever="" genuine="" haha="" has="" heart-robot="" i="" idk="" it="" lah="" ll="" love="" me="" mind="" my="" no="" on="" organised="" p="" person="" so="" somehow="" thank="" that="" the="" think="" who="" you="">And this Saturday will be Leewei's daughter's full month! I'm still thinking whether if I should go :/
my presence might bring a lot of unnecessary problems, but then she's asked me to go, what should i do o_o
tell me hor will you?

Goodnight! supposed to sleep early tonight

good day

hello!! typing on the ipad with jumpy fingers hehehe, bcos ipad's screen is too big so my fingers have to move very far to reach the next alphabet lol hahaha
i just went through my old entries and wow, to know that i have been through so much, *pat on shoulders
job well done!!!!!!
and i feel sorry that i've been laughing and mocking her all this while.. :( i shouldnt have done that...
what was i thinking?
claimed that im a christian and these are the things i do lol
they are not compatible lol.
ok lah, best wishes to you and your future! i'll give you my blessing, bcos everyone deserves to be blessed!
what have i done you little demon wtf

i want to join them back, to the clique i used to be with, the holy clique :)
its so nice to be around them and feel the warmth again!
to know that you are cared and mattered to someone really makes a lot of impact to them, to me!
so, show your affections! :D
bcos you do not change them so they become the person you like, you accept them

woah so philosophical sia hahahaha
dont know leh, hope i can keep holding this piece of truth and live with it.
bcos talk is easy and cheap, what you do next is the one that matters

and i freaking hate bgr wtf like no joke cos not fair , it only takes like two minutes for me to have a crush in someone hahaha, even in a stranger, ok im one born slut no jk who am i saying im so cute and angelic and holy how to be slut not even close to it hahahaha

ok goodnight im super tired but idk why i refuse to sleep and this contributes to my tummy and thankYOU IPAD