asshole

I DON'T WANT TO FUCKING GROW UP

I DON'T WANT TO BE NICE

I DON'T WANT TO BE WHAT OTHERS EXPECTED

I DON'T WANT TO LISTEN TO OTHERS' ADVICES

I DON'T WANT 

AND I DON'T WANT

I
JUST
DON'T

WANT

DON'T

WANT

I

DON'T

WANT

I 

D-O N-O-T W-A-N-T

:( But I can't.

I just wanna stay young.

I just want to be a kid forever.
I just want to live my life, enjoy every single moment.
I just want a life,
that I can wake up in the morning without worrying over money
without worrying over my future
without worrying over assholes
without ANY SINGLE SOUL

Is someone going to make a time machine?

If yes,

I WILL DO ANYTHING TO BUY IT.

I just want time to stop.

it's going too fast, i have yet to enjoy every moment.

i want a replay button.

i want.

kaboom woosh bam bom

Just realised something very mind-blowing. Nah, not really. I didn't realise, I just suddenly understood this thing out of the blue. You don't understand what I'm saying  ah? Ya me too HAHA.

Anywayyyyy, recently I found out my friends like to say this phrase, 就很想, after they punch, slap, pinch, prank etc, me. And it's really funny. Like they pinched me le right, they'll go like, 就很想这样捏你. HAHA
It's funny that how I noticed such liiiiiiiiiiiiiiittle thing that almost no one would. I also don't understand why I always notice tiny stuffs like this. DOES IT MEAN THAT I'M OBSERVANT? :> HAHA

It actually made me think. Will I be able to do things that I can say that those are what I want, what I think. When I'm small, I used to wish that I can grow up asap. And now, not old, but like grew up abit le right, I'd rather wish that I'm a child. :( I don't have to worry about anything. Money, future, grades, relationshits, friends, family etc. All I should be concerned of is myself! I admit I'm very selfish. I'd finish the cake instead of sharing it with others if I looooooooooved it. It might not be the best example but yea, I AM SELFISH.

What if, everything I do in the future does not represent myself?? Like it follows the track of my own benefits and stuff. I used to think that I'm counted as a good person. NAHHHH HAHAHAHAHA, not at all wtf.


以后我们都大了,做的事情也只是为了本身的利益
那我们的想法呢？
会不会还和以前一样
还可不可以能说出

就很想

还能跟随着自己的想法吗
Maybe you can, I highly doubt so for myself. :)

i haz carrotz todae

I've been invited by this friend of mine to her wedding buffet, which is tomorrow!
I'm still thinking if I should go.... Bcos it'd waste some time.... I guess.
I could've used them to study :( But like I know even if I were home I wouldn't really 'study' unless it's getting late. And when all the emotional stuffs drown me and I'd make stupid promises AGAIN and then started feeling guilty and then I would study. (or not.) Yea and events like wedding buffet is very rare what, it's not like I get to go to wedding buffet every month. :X
I think I've made my decision already hehe. :p

Alright so the conclusion is, I'll start studying by now to make up for those time I've wasted! Or maybe not wasted, cause:

 

So hopefully I'll enjoy myself tomorrow! :D 

tataaaaaa 

rantz

because like seriously,
what the fuck do you still want?
Why are you never contented?
Why are you still asking for more?
When will you stop asking?
When will you ever be contented with what you already have?
Like fucking seriously,
This is not the time to fool around, thinking about your love and shits, stupid dramas or idiotic egos.
Where do they lead you to?
Fucking procastinations and stuffs.

I'm tired.
I'm fucking tired of being you.
because, fuck everything.

The Moon!

It was the Moon Cake Festival yesterday and I had sooooooo much fun!!! My schoolmate suggested that all of us should hold more gatherings as we're going to graduate very soon. :( it's just so sad whenever I think of that... 

Aaand so, all of us decided to hang around during the festival~ Lanterns, candles and stuff. It was so much fun :D 

Without poop and pee! XD

Us with our lanterns. 

It was so dark and pictures turn out blurry but better than what I've expected!

Without poop and pee again

Teo, me, and Charlee!

The boys :D

After the lantern session we went to a cafe to satisfy my craving for milk tea. ;p

Pee, poop and me!

Again but in different orders LOL

Pee, me, poop and pig

And Le new favorite pearl milk tea of mine, with a poop...

And idk loll

And then poop, pee and I went for the second round after the rest of my schoolmates went home. Poop wanted to play some very exciting board game, so we went to this cafe! Three of us got really crazy and phoned our long lost primary school friends to ask them out. And it was 11.30PM when we called them hahaha! Then, poop and I slept over at pee's house! Three of us were so tired so we slept after bathing. 

I CUT MIE HAIR HELLO

And my friends kept on calling me Teacher Ooi, the teacher teaching in our school. T.T and I don't feel thrilled. 

Oh and my sister was kind enough to lend me her iPad, though she lost her iPhone last week. She left it at the toilet and of course it's gone. ;( 

THEY WENT TO SG THEMSELVES, WITHOUT ME. T.T ugh but at least I had fun too, so meh. They're coming back tomorrow night and I am pretty excited. Cos they told me they bought me presents *-* what could it beeeeee??? XP 

Till then! :D

Trough

Because after everything I have been through, I still don't know what I had learnt. Always whining about my life and stuff, but did nothing that would help.

I'm trying though! Trying really hard to change myself, to be a better me. I've done stupid things and let those who loved me down. The further you travel, you'll find out who your real friends are. AND I'M DEFINITELY NOT ONE OF THE REAL FRIEND. :X So honest HAHA.

I wanted to delete this blog, but it holds so much memories and I just couldn't make myself to. Someday, when I'm reeeeeeally old, I'm gonna read back every single post I had made, and laugh at how silly I was (or am...).

Till then! :D x