can you imagineeeee ahahhaha
no you probably cannot

my head is so full of him that it scares me

i can't help but to think those words are merely just words
i can't help but to think he'd just leave like everyone else after all the promises

but i probably shouldn't lol
it's so unfair to him
BUT I CANNOT HELP LEH

Thank God that Cier Tricia Jameson and Lynette are safe and sound

im scared that i'll forget about You
please guide me to you o daddy :/

以前说过不可能会做的事情 觉得很肉麻的事情
现在通通都做了哈哈哈

而且到底要上哪去找我这么没矜持的女生啊！！AHAHAHA

很喜欢跟他讲话 虽然已经无时无刻都在讲什么都讲过了还是很想讲
就算没有话题回emoji还是stickers也ok 就是要讲话就对了

要回去ipoh的时候心情真的是！！笔墨无法形容haiz
很伤心很舍不得很想哭然后一直很努力压抑
才在一起第二天就哭会不会太吓人HAHAHA
而且牵手虽然他用很烂的梗可是我连那个梗都没有回答就牵上去了哈哈哈哈哈
我是饿狼！！扑上去抓小绵羊

很想把那个烂梗打下来so我不会忘记
不好意思哦各位会读我的blog的人哈哈哈哈
其实故事是这样的！！因为我们还没有在一起的时候 就一直都是用一只手驾车
然后昨天（应该是前天了就是14号）车上只有我们两个可是我们还是~~~没有什么进展哈哈哈哈 只是一直在讲废话
然后我就问为什么你不要用两只手驾车
然后他就问我你知道这只手是拿来做什么的吗
这个时候我应该要问 做什么 然后他再牵我说 牵你的手啊 对吗
可是我直接就
牵下去了哈哈哈哈哈
没有人有空理你的烂梗啦XD

之后还很菜鸟很新手的学正确的牵手方式哈哈哈哈
我一直牵成那个比力的手势然后还觉得自己是对的
拜托人家牵过手的ok跟你一样咩谈了那么多次恋爱一次手都没有牵过欸烂 HAHAHAH

刚才keyang问我在干嘛 一直问 才讲出在写blog
就是说不久之后他一定会看到这各地方lol
ok他已经看到了HAHAHAH

好那你自己看上面的ok丢脸的是我罢了
你的手很大哦男朋友 HAHAHA
ok byebye

Hi i have a bf le o
still gang hao on shushan's birthday HAHAHA

and he very 肉麻地said
我希望我们在一起久到~~~~我们两个都忘记在一起的日期

hehehehe

but it's still so scary, to like think of the future and everything
because everything seems to be so, uncertain. :|
but God i'll hand everything unto your loving hands :D

I hope we last long, reeeeal long hehe

I think i forgot the correct way to love

Which i hopefully wish that I'd found 

是不用你勉强也能接受的

是不用你容忍也能接受的

是不用你开口也能知道的

是不用你假装也能好好的

But i just wanna let go of the rights of controlling, and just let it be.

Because yea, it it's meant to be, then it'll be. 

虽然是这样讲可是以我的性格是不可能的😂

所以加油吧哈哈哈哈 

尽量囖 

我相信jingtian会一直在我旁边提点我的😂 XD 

God is love

Lee Kuan Yew recently died, and it's really sad to hear.
Likewise to the public lah, i also think that he's a really great leader. Look at what Singapore is right now. All under his great leadership.
and then I heard about this guy, Amos Yee, who made a video titled 'Lee Kuan Yew is finally dead'
My heart aches when i see that video, like who would say that to someone who is already dead? That is so disrespectful! I contemplated about watching the video. On one hand I wanna know what he really is talking about, the other hand i wanna know what makes him think like that.
aaaaand i've made the worst decision by watching his videoS. ya videos he made before that

the righteousness he self proclaims
the know-it-all attitude he has
the tone he speaks

omg i hate it all
he's only 16
and he thinks he's all that great and mighty and smart like he knows EVERYTHING
and he even compared LKY with Jesus
I was furious at first, no one can be compared to Jesus, what do you know about Him? Who are you to claim that my Jesus is hypocritical, hungry for power and controls everybody into thinking that he is great?
FYI, he IS great.

I was so angry, I felt so annoyed and frustrated that someone as young as him, acts like he is 80 and has gone through life.

and then i felt sorry
i felt sorry for his parents
i felt sorry for him
he must have been hurt SO much, or been through a lot of sad events, which lead to the him today.
because only people who are hurt, hurt.
so father i pray, i pray for him.
that he'll grow to know and love you
father i pray that he'll know what you had prepared for him in his life
father i pray that you'll take away his pain and trouble
he's a sinner
but so am i
so who am i to judge him, really?
to You, all sins are sinful, there isn't a scale to weigh what sins are heavier and what are not.
so yea, he sins, so do i.
so who am i to judge?

i pray that all is well for him, and you'll guide him into the light.
Thank you and i love you so much
i'm so sorry i've been a naughty girl and a strayed sheep
today is easter
and i'd like to spend the rest of the hour by worshiping you

you are strong, stronger, and the strongest

Endless trouble, endless questions

i don't even know anymore

but if they are still going on, they are still 坚持-ing
who am i to shout stop?