2014

Cier says, people who sinned are actually very pitiful, and we should feel sad for them.

So ya ok new perspective for me!!! Feel sorry for the people who sinned instead of feeling angry! Ya must think like this... :D

Ok i dont want to be left out haha so i wanna do the stuffs i want to do in 2014 thing!!

1. Have faith! :D
2. Read his words DAILY!!
3. PRAYYYYYY whenever I'm free
4. Think of Him AT ANY TIME, sad or happy
5. Be a better person
6. Walk in his will
7. Trust him
8. Focus on him!!! Focus focus focus argh temptations and distractions zzz
ok normal ones
9. Pray for guidance!!!
10. Go to USS ♡♡
11. Buy a phone/ipad (hopefully)
12. Get a camera
13. Go to college....
14. Be more filial and obedient!!
15. Save...money....
16. Stop worrying so much
17. Get converse sneakers heehee
18. Get rid of bad habits.... esp laziness!!!!!!!
19. Do not judge!!!!
20. Listen to others
21. Repair my laptop
22. Remember everyone's birthday =="
23. BUY GIFTS AFTER I GET MY PAY :D
24. DIY something hahahaha
25. Constantly goes to church/service/yf
26. GIV FREE HUGS
27. Be fair to everyone
28. Talk to friends oftenly LOL

I think that's it, cannot think of more right now wahaha

All glory goes to you :D hallelujah!

Grow up.

All of them told me the same thing, it's part of growing up... but I don't want to grow up..... :'(
Can I just remain being at this trouble-free age and never grow up???
It's really sad to leave people you have gotten familiar with and everything, and most importantly, my family! ;(
to be honest, I had never thought that I would be THIS sad when i'm deciding to go work at JB.
It was never a worry for me.
But then when im really going there, leaving all my stuffs here, it feels so bad, and it feels like im separated from them. From all my favorite people....
But deep down in my heart, i know, i know they will miss me, they will remember me, but at this moment, my heart aches so much, it is sucha pain when i realized i would miss all the happy moments together with them :'(
But, if this is your will, to let me grow up, both mentally and spiritually, father let it be... :')
Jiayou! It'll always get better AND better!!

I really love you guys soooo much!!!!

His will

Ok so to keep this blog to be updated!! I'm going to work in JB soon. which is far from my home, and my friends and my church... :( and i never thought i'd be this sad but yea, i am :(
was so sad to leave everyone here, i'll miss their events here, i'll miss the happy times and also their sad times. and i'll miss all their gatherings..... :(

BUT

If it's his will for me to go there, i believe there must be his reason! so i'll just have to go according to his plan!!! and believe things will be wonderful :D he'll provide everything i need so i don't have to worry! :D For he is with me, what could be against me? :D hehehe love you lah love you so much muacks!!!

And today's sermon by brother lim, it's exactly what i needed to know. I prayed for it before, and this is his answer for me hehe, thank you father!! I know what i should do now! :D

and someone told me that, even if your faith is as small as a bean, it's stronger than anything else. :D
So have faith!

praise him muacks

I dont likeeeey

I dont like when im being looked down by people, especially by those you think are so much worse than ourselves. And i would feel so lost, thinking if im the stupid one or the other person is LOL if im correct or the other person is wrong, aiya then i would get so frsutrated duno what to do
That, is my current feeling now and i dont think anyone would understand hahahaha
Ok i feel so much better already hehe
All glory goes to you :D

Christmas eve!

Have been seeing people on fb posting statuses like having a countdown tonight!!! Y no one ask me out on christmas i guess i jus suck..... christmas party!!! And everything
And they annoy me very much :( that is not true... christmas isnt all about these, or ourselves. It's about him... it's his birthday ma, but they are celebrating this event with a wrong purpose :(
And it makes me feel really sad..
I really wished they would listen to me when i said hey, christmas is about him la
But i know they wont, or so i thought. They would laugh at me instead, imo lah
So its just sad to see people celebrating Christmas like this :(

Gonna prepare for christmas carol later! And what im going to prepare next is myself so im going to sleep lol hahaha! I will have so much fun tonight, i already can see it wahahaha, buhbye!!

Forgiveness

Personally thinks that i'm no one to ask people to forgive, since i'm not a forgiving person either. But then I'm trying to be one! :D Trying to be more forgiving and to be more like him hehe shall lock what i'm going to write bu ran you guys will say i'm preaching XD

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Yucks

i saw someone i dont like, and i go ewwwwww wth y so disgusting, sen after abit i will go walao y m i so bad mean and everything then i wud repent and asked myself not to do that agn.
But some people r jus..... =_= Ugh
No matter how hard i try, the moment i see her i wud still go ewwwwww and den omg im so mean and then the cycle continues lol hahahaha
Idk why i wrote this i jus felt like it
No actually bcus i jus ew-ed someone n i feel bad rn, o gosh y m i so kind T T am i hahaha

Ok so christmas play practice later and misspoh is coming to watch us oooooo so nervous
Nah jk i dont really mind if she is coming or not cossssssssss no difference

What shud i eat later, i nid to find a job alr lol, planned to find onr todae and failed cus of stupid maplestory zzzzz n rain but i lov rain!!!!!!!!!

I feel veri embarassed leh
But hey!!!!! It is who i am so why shud i be bothered hehe, ya!!!

Thank you la for making my day so wonderful, :p u even planned me to go to my uncle's house for breakie!!
so tell me how amazing u are...... ok gudbyeeee
Baiiii
Buaiiii

Ok for real

Bestfriend.

Hehehe thank you all for happening in my life! Cant be more appreciative right now :D
I have, a range of friends, and they all have different personalities and mindset. And they also match with me in different kind of perspective.
We have the same mindset, we have the same speech style, we think the same, AIYA WE ARE JUST COMPATIBLE IN DIFFERENT WAYS.
and i feel really contented!!!
Thank you for sending me all these wonderful people! They all changed parts of me, small or big.
And whoever helped me before, no matter big or small, i promise i will remember all of you no matter what :D
Ya its cheesy ning today HAHAHA

Ok so y u no find me hahahahahaha

Big hug and much kisses for you my darling

Yes, I am!

Yes i'm special, unique, extraordinary :D

because there must be a reason why God created me!!

Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.

Strong
Courageous
Not be dismayed

because Lord is with me wherever I go :D

I found my crush! muacks

Home.

Home supposed to be peace and calm, isn't it?
and to me, it's more like a extreme place. You can be feel extremely happy and blessed at one time, and the other time you just don't want to go home at all.
because you know what you're going to face.all the tiny problems just lumped themselves together and become a huge problem. you didn't know it would disturb you so much, but it does.

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so many to say, so little to type.
I don;t know how am i going to phrase this, but dang, a lot of things happened in the 4 days. In the ESP camp which i never expected so much from it.

i'm troubled right now and i'm trying to not be, so maybe i should sleep, goodnight....

taste like, what?

hi soldier bella checking in

JUS TRYNA IMAGINE HOW RYAN CHECKS IN EVERYTIME~*~*~*~*~*~ WAHAHAHAHA

ok back to normal, HAHA
is 12.36AM, going to a camp called EXPLOSIONNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN camp ya it's dangerous i'd probably die or faint or wounded in it????? jk jus the name, not even close to explosion >.>

excitements????? not really =.= not since i been to those stupid camps previously in my life which wasted MY TIME. MY TIME IS GOLD U KNO ANOT DUNO I LET U LEARN NOW
um am actually sleepy now but i wont sleep

wanna know why???
scroll down

NAH JK dun hav to scroll down
because im rebellious muahahahahhahahhahahaahahah

ok then =.=
omg im so lame

not really....................

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The Heirs

NO i'm not addicted, mind you.
I JUS REALLY REALLY LIKE IT!!!!!! AND I WATCHED IT CONTINUOUSLY SINCE 11AM =.=
ok that sounds a little bit addicted.
I didn't go to work today, stomach was aching so much that i had to curl t.t but i had a great breakfast SO I DECIDED TO FORGIVE MY STOMACH.

wait what day is it today ok thursday, or friday. LOL idk i'm in the middle of night rn, and i have to go to work tmr my boss misses me NAH AHHAHAHA JK
or not

LOL

ok i love the heirs :> I LOVE EVERY CHARACTERS INSIDE SO COOL SO COOL
THEY FULFILLED MY FANTASEAAAAAAAAAAAAA, so ebi

Everything is going smoothly! :D I have a job (even though I skipped, today) and i'm going to dye ma hairrrrrr YES and i'm going to jb!!! i think, and i'm going to ESP HURRAY HURRAY HIP HIP HURRAY ok i'm not that excited actually but hmc made me this excited =.= ugh she actually know how to swim alr so frustrated T.T how could she...
YA I'M TALKIN ABOUT U HAHAHA

ok one las wish
i wanna watch frozen :(
and catching fire....
oh and i wanna eat pizza, so harddddddddddddd

I WAN TO EAT EVERYTHING ERMAGURD
ok i sleep liao goodnight! :>

ERYTHIN GONE I CRI CRI CRI NO TEARS

i fukin typed everything and it is gone omfg hahahahaahah
mayb he doesnt want me to say that???
ok ;)
fan zheng i also finished ranting le, i will hav a veri good sleep, i guesss

pls reflect, i will too

in love's name

Made of gold

And the lesson taught me that, don't keep your hopes high.
But how? I expected so much that I did not even realize =_= but yea it was still great heehee
Maybe I'm just asking way too much OR IS IT ON THE WAY idk HAHAHA

Ok and today I wanna talk about magnetic field, and i think every living organisms have magnetic fields leh.
For some people, we are willing to change oyrselves just to be able to follow their magetic fields and get along with them.
But for some particular people, you wouldn't even try, you just think that, no I don't like her. And every things she did just starting to get annoying and irritating. And no matter how hard the other person tries, their magnetic fields can never be the same. Because the host won't even allow the chance for you to try, and thus, failed relations.
So I think fate is related, if the two have fate, then everything is destined (imo dun judge haha shut up) the two might be couple, bff, or even enemy and stranger.

For example,
A spilled my water, I wasnt even close to mad, I jokingly punched A in her stomach and then everything is alright again.
B spilled my water, I was so mad, so mad until I couldnt speak, when B says sorry, I would say, nah it's alright, but in fact, I was mad as fick.

And so i deduce that everyone has their own magnetic fields.
If they attract each other, they get along
If they repel, then it is hell.

Sad but true
BUT we could change, the choice is in our own hand.

Ok maybe i din mek sense but whatever i was blabbering XD why do u careeeeeee

And I must say, ignore, is the best cure in da worldddddddd

SO LETS LEARN TO IGNORE MY DARLINGS

27th Nov

HEYYYYYYY It's my birthday! :D
Er actually it's yesterday since it's already 1.12AM now BUT IDC T.T IT IS STILL MY BIRTHDAY
Anyway! Had the last paper of SPM today, not really...... bcus I still have Chinese Language but i'm totally ignoring it....... it's a week later.......

Had paper till 3PM today and then went home to get ready to celebrate mi bday XD wahaha i like birthdays why do we only have one bday a year.... :(
And then we went to sing-k AND IT WAS SUPER FUN
SUPERRRRRRRRRRRRRR FUN OMG HAHA IT WAS SO CRAY
SO CRAY
SO CRAY

YES IT IS THAT CRAY THAT I HAVE TO REPEAT LIKE THRICE HAHA
I even hurt my calves and my throat sore-d HAHHAA
Imagine how cray that is, I haven't been to sing-k for like, months??? cus I thought it was wasting money I'd rather spend them on clothes.... (which is also wasting money but seemed more worthy to me HAHA)
BUT IT WAS ONLY RM9!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SUKAH SO CHEAPPPPPPPPPP

And most importantly they have all the latest songs! Which are sooooooooo cool bcus we're kinda in a kampung state and then the karaoke is normally very lousy one :-（ BUT THEN THIS ONE IS DIFFERENT!!!! LOVE IT

ok look at my pictures!!! u can't say no anyway since u entered muahahahahhaah

pictures I took with fwens in school! i didnt upload all of dem im lazy....

Took them with my sista's instax mini, they look great irl i swear but they look abit shitty here........ DUN JUDGE MY PHONE

ok den er to the karaoke!!

Yes they are a taiiiiiiiiiiiiiny bit small HAHAHAHA aiya bear with it!!

And then me and ma cakeeeeeeeee

N DEN MEEEEEEEEE ME MEMEMEMEMEMEMMEMEMEMEMEM

After that we went to my house cus my lovely parents bought me a cake! So I asked my friends to go and sing birthday song for me... again hahahaha
didn't take any pictures :( as something happened and the situation was not fancy..........

OK DEN we went to witchery ider afterwards!
AND MET MY LONG LOST COLLEGUEEEEE I LUV HER SU MUCH OMG

ok that's all!! still loving my birthday muahahhaa
Thank you for all of you that had wished me and i'm truly grateful :D I feel so loved XD
That is the reason I love birthdays................... I FEEL LOVE AHAHAHHAHA

ok la thank you xh, zw, wq, ss, mc, wy, xy and val for spending your time with me! :D
They say the most precious thing you can ever give to a person is, your time! So spend time with your love onessssssssss!!

omg i heard lizard dropped on the floor they are so annoying wtf disgusting arghhhhhhhhhhh omg i hate lizards why now why now i was happy until that pop sound i hate u forever no matter how hard u try to get my attention u shitty lizard jus go away already omg

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

ANYWAY

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Definitely not, sike

And it is 26th!! Not really, 30minutes more heehee. I'll just assume so anyway XD
And what does that mean? Definitely NOT 1 day left till my bee-day HAHA

Idk I'm very relaxed lei, I revised le nvm XD
and the job..... like omfg I prepared my heart and soul and brain and stuff all for the job already AND NOW YOU TELL ME IT'S NOT AVAILABLE?!?!? NEVAHHHHHH
I still have hopes.... I must prevail...... JUS ONE YEAR OLD DIFFERENCE SHOULD BE OK WHAT T.T UGH SO ANGRIIIII SOB

Anyway mom got back earlier than she told me, supposed to come back 26th, but she reached home on 24th.
And being the forever hardworking mama, she cleaned the whole house and laundry and what not by herself... again....
Our house is in a mess bcus mama left for Jakarta for a trip HAHA what would I be if my mama isn't there for me... TmT cri cri cri

Ok and i was really looking for my bee-day until what shushan told me this morning, she said she forgot about it lol...... and being the very-concerned-about-bday me was quite sad tbh. But its like, i have this mindset that no one would remember beforehand already since it is in the middle of SPM and I did not advertise it LOL. I am veri loki... GEDDIT HAHAHA

ok but i still hav lotsa friends whom still rmb my bday and i am grateful for that XD my wish would be get hired in SG wtf hahahaha

Ok gudnite, mwacks

Let me live that fantasy ♡

Addicted to the song - Royals, by Lorde. But she's quite an arrogant and nasty gal... Google showed me all these >_>
But anyway!
Just ended a midnight call that lasted for 2hours and 26minutes waooo, when I should be sleeping and stuff YES I WAS ON A PHONE CALL INSTEAD XD HAHA DUN JUDGE ME

But it feels so great by pouring out what's in my heart to someone special to me! Shoutout to sweetheart! Wahaha you should know this is referring to you right, if you are actually reading this....then...HERRO LOV U SU MAC

Omg tell you what my sis bought me a present and its a super thoughtful one!!!!!! -Melts- idk how my sis can be so er er er correct ahahaha no er she is very AIYA MY ENGLISH VOCAB IS NOT GUD IM SORI BUT U CANT DO ANYTHING XDDDD

Anyways, i lov u mua sista mua mua mua
Oh it's a bb-foundation *-* totes in love with it..... omg and its not cheap >_> I WILL TREAT UR DAUGHTERS BETTER, I THINK

Ok gotta slp or else tmr cant wake up i hav a tuition at 9am, sooo i gotta crashhhhh liek an aeroplane i think or not ok bai
Muacks
Cus i feel like doing it today
Ok muacks HAHA

Thoughts

Almost everyone I met would try to be nice, but then after some time, you'll eventually find out who is real and sincere.
But it's so difficult to know who really is and who is not.
I'm glad I still have a few handsful of the so-called real friend!! I really appreciate them a lot!!!! Like a lot
And I feel disgusted, whenever people try so hard to please you, to do what you like, to act like the kind of people you like, just to be.... nice? LOL idk but it is so gross, to pretend to be someone you are not JUST to please someone.
They always tell you how much they like you, what they fond of you, but truth is, they don't care.
Stop acting like you freaking care when you don't, it's super gross....

G to the r to the no this is funny hahahaha gross ew yucks

PREVAIL LOL

ZEN ME BAN I AM BLUSHING WAHAHAHAHAHA SO EMBARASSED
Nothing much actually but still HAHAHA XD
And i hope wenhui can find someone to replace her... :(

Ok so

Ok so yesterday was the wedding of Jeffrey and Hui Li!! Pictures still not with me so mayb i mek another post about it ok?! U dun really have a choice actually hahahaha yes it is funny and i laughed what is the problem
anyway it rained before we went to the church and it was a turn off.... but we still managed to hav lotsa fun XD
Evryone came to my house bfor we went to church, didnt take any photos except with jiachyi, whom came first and the rest came later. duh
ok then the people came were alot, at least out of what I expected la
Jiachyi, Cieer, Yennie, Yenyung, Adaline, Chewmien, Tricia, Albert, I THINK THATS ALL I CANNOT RMB RN
Disclaimer, i have very bad memories, but im better than goldfish, i think
Then it was a mess.....
Tldr, it rained, car's alarm kept whining bcus of SOMETHING LA, everyone asked me to do their hair when i havent done anything of myself, and personal feuds and stuff haha
And my mirror broke.... BUT TRICIA BOUGHT ONE FOR ME HAHA VERI HAPPI VERY VERY VERY HAPPY TENK U SWEETHEART MUACKS
Ok it was a mess yes, but i had

I went to blow my hair ok lets continue

ALOT OF FUNNNNNN
i curled my hair *-* its the first time of my life XD i was so excited but jiachyi was literally shaking her head and then decided to curl for me hahahaha
BUT I WILL PREVAIL I WILL LEARN THEN MASTER IT (i hope i hav that kind of determination when it comes to study)
Ok la next time when i hav those pictures le then i will continue bout da nightttt

Ps, i have really bad memories
Zzzz i forgot i jus wrote that HAHAHAHA

if you're wondering, yes my exam is NOT over yet hehee =_= but i looked like it
The job jingtian told me was fantastic and awesome and everything nice (hopefully i didnt exaggerate too much)

Ok gudnight gotta work on my maths but no trust me i wont start until its midnight =_= so i will go and do whatever i am going to do, i still hav no idea

I found that my posts r kinda wordy and i think i should, or not i will jus continue to write wordy ones cus i can read minds i kno u like wordy posts hehe cus its sexy wtf ok no sike

Ok really goin to end this post like now

MIDNIGHT

Guess what? I'm still not asleep yet >.> I am kinda excited and then troubled now. Idk, I also felt abit of guilt ;C

Not sure if what I did is right but it's definitely not left HAHAHA GEDDIT?!?!?! LAMEEEEECHOP HAHA LAMEEEECHOP HAHAHA INFINITE LOOP

I think midnight lessens my humour... sincere apologies from me, NO NEVER I DUN DO SINCERE THINGS NAHHHH NAH NAH NAH actually I do

SO
SO
SO
Am i dramatic enough yet lol
Those were three very strong pronounced 'SO' btw, tryna make a dramatic entrance, I think I suceeded.
GOSH WAD M I DOIN ZZZ I NIDDA SLP BUT I DUN WANNA BUT I NID BUT I DUN WAN TO
ok anyway
I'm attending a wedding tomorrow!!! *Squeals*
Yea I do squeal irl but I didnt do that when I typed that but i felt like typing it dont judge me screw u if u did
ANYWAY
I'm pretty excited Cx maybe more than pretty HAHA
But something ruined it :( not really, idk I suddenly couldnt feel my excitements (is there such word) anymore sob
ITZ OKEI ERYTING WILL BCOM NORMAL TMR XD i guess

Ok mayb i'll post som pics, mayb, i didn promise, im scared dat my phone cannot take gud pics of me den i look bad when i actually dont (HAHAHAHAHA DUN JUDGE ME) then i wont feel like posting dem...
Ya who would post ugly pics of demself.... srsly =_=

I met liek, 3 or 4 californians each day, no no i din meet them as in meet them i meet dem online la
And all i thought was WA SO MANY CALIFORNIANS den im curious about that place even tho is hot like malaysia (ugh)
I hate hot places, btw I KNOW U CARE HAHA

Ok rly needa go or else my dark circles will implement and go cray cray dey hav party tmr weeeee

Omg i think my blog is gna become retarder (i created this word) than it was, but meh XD
Cant wait for spm to finish heehee
Oh and Im not goin to the trip animor ;( so baibai chris i kenot meet u animore hehe im glad
SO I CAN GO TO SG XD YAY YAY YAY HOORAY tryna comfort myself
Glad everything turned out well heehee, ruili is going so she can take my place den i dont have to go den i dun have to pay (in extremely happy tone) HAAHAHA

Ok goodnight
Or kinder bueno HAHAHA
Sugar dreams! *-*
I think im kinda girly.... i think... but then nope, i dont like pink, evwn though my phone's virtual keyboard is pink but i dont really like pink ;/ been trying to accept pink and i think i accepted but its still out if my fav colour zone boooooo
Wanna know wad colours are in my fav zone? :>
Blak blak blak HAHAHA no la got others but black stands almost 80% of it heehee

ONCE U GO BLACK U CAN NEVER GO BACK
i dun really kno what tis quote means or if i used it correctly or
IDC IM JUS GNA QUOTE IT HAHAHAHA

Crap post... like usual +-+ ok sign out bai muacks
Cos i feel like giving kisses out today
OH AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRIAN :D liek u wud even see dis haha but ya happy birthday XD enjoy ur big day hehe yayyie

Criticism

Idk I had always thought that I'm right, NOT REALLY ALWAYS, but almost >_>
They always say, do not judge.
But it's really easier said than done. :(
Sometimes when I think I'm just giving my opinions, they don't really think so.
I always say, it's the little things that count, so maybe the little things I did made them misunderstood me.
BUT IDK Y DERS SO MANI THINGS TO CONSIDER?!?!?!?
AND I don't really think about all these, but when I think, it's when I'm tryna sleep.... ;/
I do not look like a SPM candidate at all at all at all at all. Omg
All I have on my mind is, trip shop money fun freedom books games ETC
So, let's say goodbye to my social life once the holiday starts.
NOT LIKE I HAVE ONE ANYWAY XD
No srsly, I hav ok =_= dun judge mi muggles

I lov my parents n not u u jealous?
Idk y erythin so complicated leh
I AM ALSO VERI COMPLICATED
Sigh, human.....

OH HEHE GUESS WHAT?!?!?!
No I dont really mean to ask you to guess when I say that its a phrase get over it lol
ANYWAY
ITS NOVEMBER!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FAV MONTH XD ASK ME WAI
I mean it this timeeeeeee fag *-*
bcos it's goin to b my birthday heehee and I expect ALOT like A L O T
So you know what to do hehehe
It's the 27th xd aw so deep i didnt know 27 had that meaning hehe BUT NOW U KNOW
omg im talkin crap ok bai liek srs bai bai bai no haha trolled xd but bai

Trouble IS NOT MY FRIEND LO

OMG SO MANY THINGS TO BE TROUBLED OVER LEH
but exam is not included wtf hahahaha
ANYWAY I'm going to this trip with my schoolmates this December! Yea did I make it sound exciting enough........
I JUST WANT TO GO AND SHOP AND IS IT THAT DIFFICULT T.T
And everything I was compromised with were all lies argh
WHAT IF I DONT HAVE ENOUGH TIME TO SHOP?!?!
And two days of water park leh is that possible omg
Imagine just the ticket price lah and include how coward I am then I will not play all the exciting games THUS WASTE ALL MY MONEY
I'd rather spend them on shopping like for real.... >_>

Ok rantz ova ova ova ova is da singular noun of ovum HAHAHAHAHA AWK

wasted time.

Errrrrr, wanted to say so many things but like meh, too lazy to. 

I'm having SPM right naooooooooo and I know it doesn't look like it >.> BUT HEY THIS IS SPM

So many temptations in dis world........ omg when can I successfully ignore them

Sometimes I really wish I can be less observant and attentive. All these 'talents' kept making myself know things I don't want to know.

SOMETIMES, I just felt like covering her mouth with MY HAND AND ASK HER TO SHUT THE F UP.

OMG what are the nonsense you are blabbering.

YOU ARE NOT HER MOTHER???????? YOU ARE NOT A QUEEN cough and you cannot control everything ok!!!!!!

Stop acting like you're in charge and everything should go accordingly to what you wish. YOU WISH LOL

Idk maybe sometimes I act like that too but i'm almost 4000% sure I'm NOT THAT AGRESSIVE

What happened to you >.> 

I'm gna ask you to shut up the next time you snapped some shits out of your mouth again ugh.

 OH and stop acting like you're all atas and better and 'higher' literally than everyone else.

It just lowers yourself....... Cut those crap omg

 Conclusion is, your mouth is sucha hateful lil bitch zzzzz shut your mouth up and the day is sunny again!!! yipeeeee 

SHUT UP IF YOU DON'T HAVE ANYTHING NICE TO SAY.

DON'T YOU UNDERSTAND!!!!!!!!!!!11111111

and who said ignoring texts from friends is cool WHO SAID DIS IS CORRECT

I wanna say xo but no it's gay for this post so bai

boost bootie LOL

have you ever looked into the mirror and like, nope, this girl is ugly af.....
AND the other time you just went like, o dam diz gurl iz qt af!!!!

DIFFERENT MOOD DEFINES YOUR MIND. (duh)

you judging peepo in your mind:
will u jus stfu u r so annoying just shut up alr omg like when can u shut up ur voices are so annoying i hate u you ugly bitch cocky arrogant stupid idiotic gal

you heard peepo judging you:
o dam bitch u kno me for like 1 day and u judge mi liek ur my mother hu r u to say that u kno me but u duno my story!!! dam stupid ugly bitch im fab

soooooo irony :S

WHAT TIME ALR U STILL SITTING HERE LOL

I can't wait until my exam is ovaaaaaa, and I can do EVERYTHING I WANT!!!!!!!!! W.O GUILT XDD
tata ruviu muack

Rain

Because when it rains, I have another reason to be happy.
I loveeee rain, it makes me happy.
I like the smell of the rain!
I like the cold when it rains!
I like to walk in the rain.
I like to be soaked wet by the rain water.
I like everything when it rains, it makes my day better.

I'm feeling dissapointed, I didn't think that what I did was completely correct.
I thought speaking out what I had on my mind was correct, but not how rude I was.
But no, seriously, the last time I ever wrote about my family (in the bad way) on facebook was when I was 14. Like freaking seriously, who ever does that is really stupid and childish in my opinion. And it happens to be someone close to me.
Period.

Lightbulb

And suddenly, ding!
I have all the answers to my millions of questions.
And it felt really good.
I'm not alone, never alone.
Since the day I was born until now, and then in the future.

The key to all my answers is you, and I love you.

Honestly

I'm feeling blue most of the days recently.
I don't know how to explain this,
Basically, nothing really changed, or changed.
I had no idea.
It's like, all the reasons for me to happy in this world had disappeared, vanished, destroyed.

I don't know how to be happy anymore.
I forgot how to be happy ALL THE TIME like I used to anymore.

Blueblueblueblue

Was quite frustrated by the fact that I was free to go home at 1PM from school, but then I reached home around 2.30PM whaaaaaaaaat.
But I should actually be grateful cos sometimes I can't even go home lol.
Cos ai haz nu transpoortttt.
Feel like blabnering today

I think I might be a volcano
An unstable one, blows up in no time HAHA
Hmmm or something cuter, idk, what else blows up in no time,
AH BLOWFISH HAHAHA
ok so you must not tell anyone the fact that i might be a blowfish promise!!
oh gosh, I think I'm crazy
NAHHHH JUST KIDDING XP

You are such a liar

Nah I just suddenly thought of it,
You can believe a dishonest man to be dishonest,
But you cannot believe an honest man to be honest all the time.

And what if, you are not that nice as I have thought you are?
Mannnnn I think I'm losing my mind, things are so easily getting on my nerves nowadays.
Just that, I hate people who everytime fucking does things against what they had said earlier.
Sooooo flipling hypocrital.
If you cannot do what you have said or agreed or promised, THEN DON'T SAY ANYTHING.
You know, there are so many kind of people in this world, and the one i hated most is this, those who do things against what they have just said.
IF you are that nice to everyone, you can accept everyone, you think everyone is great and befriends with everyone,
Then don't fucking tell me how much you disliked her.
It just makes me feel like throttle you can peel off your fake skin lol
Sounds kinda creepy and scary, but yeah.
Maybe I'm one of those too????
DONT YOU DARE TO NOD

ARGH, I hate everything lol hahaha

Ok finish ranting, can carry on living my life with very good mood, yes please.

Oh and, favorite quote of the day,
Do not let idiots to ruin your day.
So like, yea, haters are bornt to hate anyway, if they ever stopped hating, it'd be like sharks stopped eating meats. IMPOSIBRUUUU

Ok conclusion u r a fker
NAHHHH just kidding heh heh

Duno

Duno how to describe what I feel right now. Life has been in a mess...
Not sure what I did is right or wrong.
What's the definition for right and wrong??
Thing is, I couldn't turn back time, I can only carry on with the decisions I had made, and actions I had done.
Even if I felt regret, there's nothing I could do.
I felt angry, when they were insulting (not really?) me.
I felt regret, because I shouldn't have acted so agressive and impulsive.
But what can I do?
I have my bestie, she doesn't understand (or actually she does) but she does not know how to comfort me. I do not blame her, as this is not a borned-talent.
Still, I feel so sorry of myself, because I had no one to talk to. Maybe I do have, but things have changed. They are not the same anymore.
All the pretense I have done, all the shits I tolerate, all the stuffs I asked myself to stop fucking care, just, wasted.
Because of this fucking temper or mine.
Not sure if it's a good thing or not, cos like
Firstly, I can finally stop pretending to be who I am not (assumed so)
Secondly, I can finally not give a fuck to them poos.
And actually no more.
So this is like what, is this guuuud?? That I don't have to pretend anymore?
But what's the meaning if I stopped pretending??
Life is all about pretense.
Pretending to be who you are not.
Maybe it has been too long since I have felt this. It came crumbling down, broken all the stuffs I have put up to.
It is indeed sad, but what can I do other than accepting.
Fortunately, they don't dare to do it in front of me.
Because haters are like shadows,
They only do stuffs like gossiping BEHIND you.
still not sure good thing or not cos you are fully aware about it but you have to act all ignorant and happy
Weeeee i dont know a shit about you gossiping about me yayyyieyie
No, just no. I have to go through all these shits
BECAUSE LIFE IS A FUCKING ASSHOLE.

Where is my God now
No i didnt mean to ask that it just sounded cool
Yolo
Lolll XD

Birthday surprise! (Failed)

Yea as the title said, a failed birthday surprise haha!
In conclude, this friend of mine, jingtian, knew that what we're gna do but me and wanqing asked her to act ignorant. HAHAHA
Then she knew there was gna be a birthday cake but she had to act like all surprised and stuff.
It was just hiiiiilarious!!
It was a really fun night, a really unusual Monday night!
My mind keeps on reminding me that the SPM is like reeeeally close.
BUT I JUST WON'T STUDY ZZZ T.T
Argh will just skip this stupid topic. :'(

This is jingtian on the left!

outfit of daaa night! 

Happy Birthday again darling
!!

Mai underwear

Been through alot of dilemmas these two days.
It's all about myself ;(
You know I'm actually a person who is easily influenced aaaaand changed.
When I actually say no, it might not really means 'no', it might be 95% no and another 5% yes.
Might sound ridiculously confusing, but yeah, that's how confusing I can get.
Oh it's like, what I said might not be 100% of what I thought.
Lulz I'm not on topic anymore...

ANYWAYYYYY.
Just to say that my mind is really easy to get influenced by others.
Like, I could still be very determined about my decision five minutes ago,and someone came to talk to me, persuade me, and I might just change my decision (almost) right after the second I've made my mind.
I feel so useless T T
Where are all my jian chiiiiiii
每次不管下了多大的決心
不管自己是多麽的堅持
只要有人來勸我或者是說服我
下一秒我馬上可以改變心意wtf

People like me are whom the salesmen aim at looool.
Like throw one bait and then BINGOOOOOOO

In conclusion,
I should avoid salesmen.

NAHHHHHH just kidding.

Biology wtf

This story is still hot, it just happened in like 13minutes ago LOL.
I was bathing just now, half way done, ah ignore that. And then, I saw this yellow little squimish thing on the wall.
WTF I WAS LIKE NOOOOOOO WAI MI WAI MI WAI MI.
I'm going to explain this story with Biology. HAHA
A human has this involuntary action called reflexes. The reflexes are not sent to to brain for intepreting, they are interpreted at the spinal cord.
When my eyes saw the squimish thing, fine it's a worm, A DISGUSTING ONE!!!!
 Nerve impulses are sent from my eyes to the interneurone at the spinal cord via afferent neurone, those impulses are then intepreted by the spinal cord and then certain reflect actions are sent to the effector via the efferent neurone.
BUT! Some impulses are still sent to the brain so you know that what's happening lmao,
So you can still decide what to do or what not to.
So my reflect action was to scream I guess, but I decided not to cus I don't want to scare myself.
So I sang a song instead wtf. Freshly made song, the mama-I-am-scared song.
So I was singing the song and then I tried to kill the worm with a brush. (that's all I got in the bathroom)

SO x4 COMBO 

BUT IT WON'T DIE?!?!?!??! T.T
I was terrified when it went missing wtf, it's sooooooooooo disgusting when it moves.
So I quickly switched on the light (yes it wasn't switched on previously) and tried to find its carcass (hopefully T.T)
I found it but it's still moving *faints, not* I then sent it away with water.

HAHA A BIOLOGY STORY HOW COOL IS THAT. no??

aiiiiii mizzzzzz maiiiii loonggggg hairrrrrrrr

Perspectives

如果連自己都不相信自己的話
那還有睡會相信？
那個是我覺得最可悲的事了
連信仰都沒有的話
那讓自己堅持下去的是什麽

Talked to this friend of mine, he told me he is sure that he cannot get good grades.
Yes, when he didn't even study for anything.
How can he be so sure when he did not put in the effort??
Maybe if he had been in a different circumstance, he might be a different person.
Confident, positive, optimistic.
He is charming, but he doesn't think so.
He thinks his future has been decided, he said that his future is gonna be no different from his friends.
Work, work, and strive to be alife.
But this isn't how it should be, we only live once, sadly, we should totally fight for what we want!!
I've been through alot of troughs too, like the one happened few days ago.
I still believe in me, in God.

可以的

asshole

I DON'T WANT TO FUCKING GROW UP

I DON'T WANT TO BE NICE

I DON'T WANT TO BE WHAT OTHERS EXPECTED

I DON'T WANT TO LISTEN TO OTHERS' ADVICES

I DON'T WANT 

AND I DON'T WANT

I
JUST
DON'T

WANT

DON'T

WANT

I

DON'T

WANT

I 

D-O N-O-T W-A-N-T

:( But I can't.

I just wanna stay young.

I just want to be a kid forever.
I just want to live my life, enjoy every single moment.
I just want a life,
that I can wake up in the morning without worrying over money
without worrying over my future
without worrying over assholes
without ANY SINGLE SOUL

Is someone going to make a time machine?

If yes,

I WILL DO ANYTHING TO BUY IT.

I just want time to stop.

it's going too fast, i have yet to enjoy every moment.

i want a replay button.

i want.

kaboom woosh bam bom

Just realised something very mind-blowing. Nah, not really. I didn't realise, I just suddenly understood this thing out of the blue. You don't understand what I'm saying  ah? Ya me too HAHA.

Anywayyyyy, recently I found out my friends like to say this phrase, 就很想, after they punch, slap, pinch, prank etc, me. And it's really funny. Like they pinched me le right, they'll go like, 就很想这样捏你. HAHA
It's funny that how I noticed such liiiiiiiiiiiiiiittle thing that almost no one would. I also don't understand why I always notice tiny stuffs like this. DOES IT MEAN THAT I'M OBSERVANT? :> HAHA

It actually made me think. Will I be able to do things that I can say that those are what I want, what I think. When I'm small, I used to wish that I can grow up asap. And now, not old, but like grew up abit le right, I'd rather wish that I'm a child. :( I don't have to worry about anything. Money, future, grades, relationshits, friends, family etc. All I should be concerned of is myself! I admit I'm very selfish. I'd finish the cake instead of sharing it with others if I looooooooooved it. It might not be the best example but yea, I AM SELFISH.

What if, everything I do in the future does not represent myself?? Like it follows the track of my own benefits and stuff. I used to think that I'm counted as a good person. NAHHHH HAHAHAHAHA, not at all wtf.


以后我们都大了,做的事情也只是为了本身的利益
那我们的想法呢？
会不会还和以前一样
还可不可以能说出

就很想

还能跟随着自己的想法吗
Maybe you can, I highly doubt so for myself. :)

i haz carrotz todae

I've been invited by this friend of mine to her wedding buffet, which is tomorrow!
I'm still thinking if I should go.... Bcos it'd waste some time.... I guess.
I could've used them to study :( But like I know even if I were home I wouldn't really 'study' unless it's getting late. And when all the emotional stuffs drown me and I'd make stupid promises AGAIN and then started feeling guilty and then I would study. (or not.) Yea and events like wedding buffet is very rare what, it's not like I get to go to wedding buffet every month. :X
I think I've made my decision already hehe. :p

Alright so the conclusion is, I'll start studying by now to make up for those time I've wasted! Or maybe not wasted, cause:

 

So hopefully I'll enjoy myself tomorrow! :D 

tataaaaaa 

rantz

because like seriously,
what the fuck do you still want?
Why are you never contented?
Why are you still asking for more?
When will you stop asking?
When will you ever be contented with what you already have?
Like fucking seriously,
This is not the time to fool around, thinking about your love and shits, stupid dramas or idiotic egos.
Where do they lead you to?
Fucking procastinations and stuffs.

I'm tired.
I'm fucking tired of being you.
because, fuck everything.

The Moon!

It was the Moon Cake Festival yesterday and I had sooooooo much fun!!! My schoolmate suggested that all of us should hold more gatherings as we're going to graduate very soon. :( it's just so sad whenever I think of that... 

Aaand so, all of us decided to hang around during the festival~ Lanterns, candles and stuff. It was so much fun :D 

Without poop and pee! XD

Us with our lanterns. 

It was so dark and pictures turn out blurry but better than what I've expected!

Without poop and pee again

Teo, me, and Charlee!

The boys :D

After the lantern session we went to a cafe to satisfy my craving for milk tea. ;p

Pee, poop and me!

Again but in different orders LOL

Pee, me, poop and pig

And Le new favorite pearl milk tea of mine, with a poop...

And idk loll

And then poop, pee and I went for the second round after the rest of my schoolmates went home. Poop wanted to play some very exciting board game, so we went to this cafe! Three of us got really crazy and phoned our long lost primary school friends to ask them out. And it was 11.30PM when we called them hahaha! Then, poop and I slept over at pee's house! Three of us were so tired so we slept after bathing. 

I CUT MIE HAIR HELLO

And my friends kept on calling me Teacher Ooi, the teacher teaching in our school. T.T and I don't feel thrilled. 

Oh and my sister was kind enough to lend me her iPad, though she lost her iPhone last week. She left it at the toilet and of course it's gone. ;( 

THEY WENT TO SG THEMSELVES, WITHOUT ME. T.T ugh but at least I had fun too, so meh. They're coming back tomorrow night and I am pretty excited. Cos they told me they bought me presents *-* what could it beeeeee??? XP 

Till then! :D

Trough

Because after everything I have been through, I still don't know what I had learnt. Always whining about my life and stuff, but did nothing that would help.

I'm trying though! Trying really hard to change myself, to be a better me. I've done stupid things and let those who loved me down. The further you travel, you'll find out who your real friends are. AND I'M DEFINITELY NOT ONE OF THE REAL FRIEND. :X So honest HAHA.

I wanted to delete this blog, but it holds so much memories and I just couldn't make myself to. Someday, when I'm reeeeeeally old, I'm gonna read back every single post I had made, and laugh at how silly I was (or am...).

Till then! :D x

Best wishes to everyone.

希望不管是我认识的，不认识的can have a better life.
希望路边的流浪汉可以发现自己有能力做工 不在乞讨 用双手好好地养活自己
希望路边的猫狗 不在饿肚子 不在受凌虐 有家 被爱
希望爸爸妈妈身体健康 小毛病都死开 长命百岁
希望大姐生活事事顺利 学会珍惜
希望二姐不要再钻牛角尖 生活也事事顺心
希望哥哥的负担越来越轻 不需要再为钱烦恼 感情生活也越加幸福

Dad and mom worked so hard, just to earn money for their children to grow up. From milk to clothes, clothes to food, food to shelter, tuition fees, pocket money, education fees. I think this is the real uncountable noun. Their sacrifices for us, it's uncountable. I can't deny I am really selfish. Sometimes, I wonder how could I be this selfish, it's kind of unbelievable. When my sisters saw Rilakkuma things, they thought of me. They'd buy for me and then bring back to me. But when I go out, Idk why I'll never think of them. ALL I WOULD EVER THINK OF IS MYSELF :'( It's not fair.... but they never complained.....

Sometimes I would think, why am I so pathetic, I have none the richies have. I compare myself with them, I want all the luxury items. But I have never thought of, how my mum would save her money down even if she really wanted something badly. No, my mum is not into saving money, she uses money ALOT. BUT NEVER ON HERSELF!!!! She used them all on us, the family. When it comes to clothes, I buy ALOT. My mum knew that bad habit of mine. So, she saved her money down, and let me to buy them. I CANNOT UNDERSTAND THIS LOGIC!!!!!!!!! Sometimes my clothes could cost up to RM 50 for one, whereas my mum buys 2 for RM50. It may not be much to you, but I don't care. I don't come from a rich family, so what? My family gives everything they can afford for me. And I think that's enough.

Sometimes I think, why am I so not blessed? Why God sent so many enemies to hold and stop me from going on????? I always, always think of the bad things, those I DON'T have. That's why I feel so unblessed. What more can I ask for? I have my friends, the very very very very caring friends. I have my family, they LOVE me more than anyone else on earth. I have a healty body. I live in a peace country. I'm living a blissful life. But I would always ask for more... Desires can never be filled up. Desires are broken pails, you can never fill it.

People always say, cheirsh. ME too. But I had never understand the meaning, until now.
Thank God, for sending me so many angels, protect me and guide me in my life. No matter they are people I know or not. I want to list down all the people who had helped me, protected me in my life. But, I found it's another uncountable noun. I can never be so thankful, thank you for everything. Thank you for those who had come into my life, and made it better.

What can I do to make the world better? Make the people feel better, and thus a better world. Feel them like they are you, do what you want the others do to you.
我希望世界会变得更好
我希望每个人都会过得更好

Love

Spread the loveeeeeeeeeeee~ 

I think our community needs love, love and MORE LOVE. Nowadays people are so into criticizing people (Including myself!!!) de bads, and then never look at their good side. Cannot deny right? I myself also cannot deny that everytime I would be selectively blind hahahahha, then pick on their faults. I feel so guilty now. T___T This is a bad habit ah, have to change this one. When one of us gossip about the others, we actually increased the rate of hatred among the environment unconciously hahahahahaha what the hell am I saying. Aiya as long as I understand jiu gou le! :P

Be the temple of God. Still cannot fully understand what this sentence is trying to say, but I think I got the point already la. They said hor, you must be as good as God, so good until people see God in you, and then you succeed in both sides- treat the others good thus spreading love and also spread how good our God is!

Praise.
How many of us can do this? You think very easy ah? Maybe it's easy for you lah but I don't think it's easy for me.... Some people are really good, they can praise the others easily, sincerely. But sometimes, I can't. :( Yeah really leh, sometimes hor I very stingy one, keep all my praises and good words inside and never say them out. Receiving praises is easy lah, you sit there then people keep on ''wahhhhhhhh so nice ah so good ah so pretty ah so handsome ah so kind ah so generous ah so clever so smart...........&^#*$&^*&^$'' and everything nice, and then you feel sooooooooo good, I feel sooooo loved. But I myself cannot do this.... Such a shame. :( What should I put this as?!!?!? Like hor, I don't like to know/acknowledge people are better than me (?) which makes me less better? LOL But I'm doing my best le ok! I've been trying to praise people heartily these weeks, cus I realized how evil was my thinking lol. Why would I think like that ah? I also don't know leh, I get jealous of them?? :( Cus I was once a wallflower, excluded from people, groups and sorts lah. So now I'm learning how to praise people whole heartily!! :D

Jealousy, is suchan evil thang. >:( must get rid of it. Sometimes you just can't help but feel that you're worse than others. So what would I do when I feel like that? I get jealous. Jealousy is so ugly, but I can't help to gain that shet........

有时候不是你在表面看到的那么简单. 你在羡慕其他人的时候, 其他人可能也在羡慕着你.

So!!! The best of all, is to learn to accept, cherish and AGREE.

选择性失明症状 - 你看到其他人的缺点，却看不到自己的缺点.

DotA diary 2.

MET GOOD GUYS TODAY. Cho lucky one!!!!!! Me still using the same DR, and then Luna, Puck, Viper and another guy left game. Don't know why leh but I think it's because of his internet? Cus he keeps on complaining the game very laggy then suddenly he left liao hahahah.

Luna, Puck and Viper, wtf best combinations so far I've ever seen hahahaha! Despite the combination of me, ruili and shixiang hahahahahah. *sarcasm* THEY ARE NOT ONLY PRO, but also very good to me! T_T So difficult to see gamers like this liao lor, like what I said in the previous blogpost. They didn't even scold me!! They just kept on asking me to run and go back home and farm gold and buy what items, wahlaoooooooooooo cho nice!! THING IS, they don't know I'm a girl! Maybe you don't understand cus you've never played DotA before, BUT IF THEY NEVER SCOLD YOU AND THINKS YOU'RE A BOY, that's like super super super super duper rare one. Yes, like pandas, rare like pandas hahahhaha.

Hello, it's Saturday midnight! Just spent time at studio this morning until afternoon. Went to have lunch with vegedog at MCD's, and then went back to studio again! Doing nothing at studio afterwards, we just crawled and bawled and rolled and laughed at boring things. I don't know why but, everytime when I'm with vegedog, I became a super duper idiotic person immediately, no joke hahahahhaha! Actually, we're the most idiotic pair in the world I guess? *tears rolling down face* Not sure if it's a good thing or bad thing hahahha. Ok lah then after that went to tuition lor, the subject was Addmaths! Um then vegedog and Shu3 went back to my house to prepare ourself for the basketball practice afterwards!!! Quite excited cus I haven't touched basketball for like, months or something. No, I'm not good in basketball, all I do is scream and run away from falling balls. Sounds pretty cool huh? But!!!!! I'm not that bad either, I can throw the ball, of course lah in the basket and score points. =.= And I can do stretching warm-ups hahahahhaha!

Frustrated things happened, walao and those are the things you can't say, so I type lor? Hahahhaha! Oh and hor I think I'm super humour one, I can made up lots of funny gags unconciously! Ok lah thing is, you don't have to talk like a hipster/jerk/bastard/kiampak-guy to be funny. -___- Super frustrating one, when you're asking serious questions and being really serious, someone might just switch on his/her 'humour' switch, and then talk birds. Sometimes, they just made you so speechless that you don't want to answer any of his/her questions, or continue the topic. Really mah, so sao-xing one. Maybe one or two times is ok what, but they just do that SO frequent that I'd just get annoyed and stuffing airs inside my stomach.*Grabs fists*

WHY PEOPLE CANNOT WAIT UNTIL WE STOPPED TALKING AND THEN START ANOTHER TALK LEH? Like I'm talking to A then suddenly B popped out of nowhere and then started his/her own topic like I don't exist. Plus super awkward for A one! I'm sure A was all confused and startled hahahahha. Maybe startled is abit too irrelevant? And hor, like, A was asking me something, B just popped out of nowhere (Yes, again.) and then started answering A. I STUFFED AIRS INSIDE MY STOMACH AGAIN, super awkward one, then I don't know what to do, opened and closed my mouth like I was doing some mouth exercise. =.= Really mah, maybe one or two time, I could think it as he/she didn't hear I was answering A already, so B started to answer A, good thing mah. But then, IT ALL HAPPENED TOO OFTEN THAT I SUSPECT HE/SHE.............. dots said it all le.

And hor, I don't like to pretend that I like something/someone when I really don't. Of course I also have my own bads lah, so I tried to accept and like my friends' or even strangers' bad habits. Except vegedog, she has too many bad habits liao LOL HAHAHAHHA.

xo byebye and say hi to beddie. MA OWN ROOM TODAE.

DotA sexism.

Walao this game in Asia is full of sexists. They saw you have girlish name hor they ask if you're a girl, if you said no then they'll be like,

''sohai la noob go back home sleep drink milk go hell leave game pls''. 

Then I'll get really agitate CUS I DONT WANT TO BE SCOLDED FOR NOTHING LIKE THAT MAH. Like who wants?!?!??!?!?! Argh.

''IM A GIRL MTHERFKA'' 

told them this one, you think it's the right choice? A big NO NO NO, actually three hahahahahah, they'll go like,

''lol fake 1 la go back home sleep drink milk go hell leave game pls'' 

OR

''giv mi ur fb den i trust lol, or nt u lying, giv me c ur fb or photo then i blive''

WAHLAO PEOPLE PLAY DOTA VERY NOOB CUS IM NEWBIE CANNOT AH. DOTA GOT RULES STATED NOOB CANNOT JOIN?!?!?!?? ARGH.

You don't know how mean your words are, you keep ask me to leave the game, right? THEN I WON'T LEAVE SO AT LEAST I MAKE YOU LOSE THAT GAME! HMPF. 

This face is the best to describe what I'm feeling now hahahahahhaha! 

To all the DotA-ers out there: 

Pls la dun scold mi if u see mi in game ok, and trust mi im a girl i got everything a girl has ok. pls dun  ask for fb to comfirm im a girl so you won't scold me and if i didnt give you my fb stop fking saying that im lying ARGH I JUST DONT WANT TO GIVE YOU AH!!!!!!! UGH. Also, please effing be kind to all the newbies like me can?!?!?!? Show what a boy can do best ok? 

Oh and, I think you guys still have this very big mystery wanting to solve, and let me tell you the answer ok?? :)

YES. GRAMMAR EXISTS.

Sincerely yours.

Garena id - bellariel_blues 

xoxoxo play wid mi

Dreams.

It's not a dream when it's not big enough or it's not scaring you.

Hello! Greetings from midnight, this big bad night got me thinking EVERYTHING again. Yes, worrying over things doesn't make it better, it actually gets worse cus you think too much.
But no can help lah, if only I have a remote control to shut down my brain........ ACTUALLY no, it sounds bad hahahahahah, if shut down my brain means it's off, i'm dead? LOL ok change the topic.

Aaaaaaaaand I have a dream, a dream that's scaring me, so it's a dream indeed! It's making me to think, if i would reach that dream. And then all those negative thoughts started to storm in my brain, Are you gonna make it? You sure you can do it well? Are you sure it's the best choice? What if I can't reach it? How can I make it happen? QUESTIONS that are always going through my head.

I can't handle all my thoughts, they are too much for me.

EVERY SINGLE TIME I thought of those questions, scare the shit outta mie small ass. Walao, I'm not sure it's gonna happen or not! Then I get in dilemma, wondering those useless shits and pies I will get if that dream of mine doesn't happen in the end.

Every story gets a good ending, if your story does not have one, it's not the end yet!

Exactly, soooooooooo, what I'm gonna do is just,
BELIEVE THE SHIT DREAM OF MINE IS GONNA HAPPEN. They say, dream while you can. Yea but it's kind of difficult to make yourself believes that your dream actually comes true. But, what makes you feel better? Questions or Beliefs? I'll leave you all with that question, I hope you'd come out with a good answer as I have.

Words are magic, they do all kind of tricks. Your praise to someone might not require alot of energy of yours, yet it helps them more than you'd thought.

 Praise doesn't require money nor energy *maybe some*, but it HELPS SOOOOOOOO MUCH THAN YOU'LL EVER THOUGHT OF. So, let's be kinder to the people around us, and create a waaaaaaaarm and caaaaaaaring community! I think it's pretty difficult lor hhahahahaha.

The more you care about, the more you hurt.

 Sad, but truth. Sometimes, you just have to ignore, ignore the shit outta ur little or big azz. My dad told me yesterday, WHY DO YOU EVEN CARE ABOUT HER?? IT'S HER LIFE! IT'S NON OF YOUR BUISNESS.
Then I was thinking, YA LOR WHY SHOULD I BE BOTHER OF HER LIFE SO MUCH? IT'S NON OF MY BUISNESS WAD! SHE CAN BE ALL VICIOUS AND KEPO ALL SHE WANTS!!!
It might be difficult to ignore lah seriously, but practice makes perfect! LOL not sure if this idiom is suitable here.

Last quote,

JUST DO YOUR BEST, just so you know, you didn't let down yourself.

I'm joining the public speaking! Must believe in myself mah, then get champion!!!!! *Holds fists*
Goodbye, and goodnight. :D

Day1.

Hello! I'm supposed to be sleeping now, supposed hah. It's 2.07am and dad just finished the annual ritual of tee-gong's birthday. Walao i was feeling really frustrated just now, but then, aiya nevermind lah I'll just take it as child's play. -____- even when he happens to be not a child!!!!!! Ugh, forget it.

I wanted to talk about the day six of CNY! Hehehe us 6 knew when we went for a camp that was held in Kukup. We came from different schools, so it's really a fate for us to know each other!!!! Heheheheheheh.

The first stop was Yimieng's house, which was located really far from town hahahaha! But we didn't take any photos don't know why leh. And so the next stop is Weiken's houseeeeeeeeeee. We finally started to take photographs hahahahha!

#1

 From left;
Weewee, XTing, me trying to act like I'm smoking, and then yimieng the one that went down, and Shijun the one that wore hat! Yea Weiken missed out in this photo, I think he went to get us drinks.

#2

 They told me I would do that hand-on-chin's pose whenever someone is taking photo, I really didn't realise it until they told me so. Hahahahah so the two were teasing me. Maybe I was trying to show off my watch unconciously. XD

#3

 Uhm ahhahahahaha.

#4

 Oh the right-est one is weiken, he got in the camera alas!!!!!

#5

Keekekekekkee.

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After that we went to shijun's house! I was pretty bored there cus my head was dizzy. Like SERIOUSLY DIZZY AH SO DIZZY, I thought the world was spinning and rolling and dancing ah =.= . And they were playing mahjong, I don't know how to play it, so........... Actually I know how to, I just don't know how to win lol. Btw, talked about mahjong, I played with my siblings just now cus they are lacking of kaki so they asked me to join them. (Normally they won't one, cus I have alot of questions hahahahha) And then I lost a total of RM16 =.= I DIDN'T EVEN WIN ONE ROUND AH HOW CAN!!!!!!!!! Ok back to that day, so I was really dizzy and lay on a really comfy chair! Not sure if it's really comfy or it's comfy cus I was dizzy............... NEVERMIND. So I sat for the half day, and spent the other half doing my homework hahahahahahaha. So after they had fun playing mahjong, we decided to set kong-ming-deng off!!!! It was a pretty large one, eh sorry, it's really large. =.= It's like twice the size of the normal one we've seen. The moment when shijun opens the plastic bag and takes out the kong-ming-deng, all of us went WOAAAAAAA SO BIG AH CAN WRITE ALOT OF WISHES. LOL hahahahahahaha.

Alright here's a view of the really big kong-ming-deng. In case you didn't know what's a kong-ming-deng, it's a really big lantern that you set off to the sky hahahahaha. By using the hot air balloon theory, the candle buns and then carbon dioxide produced and then the paper goes baboooom and gets really big and then flies lor. aiya you know lah. Let the pictures speak!

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 Part of the wishes that we wrote on the lantern!
心想事成 (Whatever we wish will come true)
身体健康 (Be healthy)
And then the following two-words letter are our names lor, us 6's names.
And then the right side one,
幸福快乐 (Happiness)
永远开心 (Happy forever)

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 This is Weewee writing her wishes on the lantern.

♡ 3

Left side one is Xinting, not sure what is she doing hahaahhaha, looking at what I'm writing?
Middle me writing wishes.
Right bottom is Yimieng I think, writing wishes too!

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 The really brave Xinting lighting up the wax, the weather was really windy so the flame kept on burning her fingers!!!!!! Thankiu Xinting!!!! But she also keeps on shouting, 哇很烧勒很烧!!! Hahahahahha I think everyone would do that. So in the end Shijun went and got us a candle so it's easier for her to light up that wax.

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 Ok the picture explains it all ~

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A big salute to Xinting! See how hot she was hahahahha!

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 FINALLY!!!!!!! THE LANTERN IS UP ^_______^

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And us 4 taking picture with the lantern hahahahahah! Yimieng was the photographer so she's not in this picture. :( Weiken went back before this so he's not in this picture too!

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 Us two trying to take picture with the lantern also, but.......... hahahahahhahahaah it flew up really high already hahahahaha! SPOT DAT LITTLE RED DOT!!!!!!!!!!
P.S. I'm not that short actually lor just becus I bent my legs!!!!!! Really usually not that short one tsk. -_-

Heeeheeee I guess that's all! Didn't take any better selcas that day cus I was too busy with my dizzy head and homework and also group photos! Wasn't in mood of selca. :(

Alright, goodnight guys!