longass holidays

HI! it's been so long HAHA, i'm enjoying my really long holidays, with a pang of guilt..... ugh
Haven't seriously used my brain for like, weeks? and I don't know if they still work, i guess they still do since i'm typing here hahaha
um watching tv series, korean dramas and youtube videos during most of my time

oh and few days ago, went to SG with shan to visit the poly's, gosh they are so huge, huge and huge. we walked till the sweat flow like we just had a shower wtf. but it was fun! exploring the country, it's like an adventure to me hehehe, but at the end of the day, when both of calmed down before we sleep. and there it was, my emotional queen inside me was activated, idk how lmao, i was missing home so much, so much more than then i was working in JB. and i felt like crying wtf hahahaha
but nahhhhh, i watched the originals instead, and cleared away all my troubles hehehe

oh and i've been wasting time SO FREAKING MUCH. the expired date used to be so far away and then now it's like, a finger touch a way wtf, scare die me =.=
and i cannot continue this vicious cycle already lah, sleep at 3, woke up at 11, and then start to do my own useless things hahaha

cannot say useless also, but yea it is useless, and wtf am i doing i haven't got my license wtf lol my mom has been asking me to go and have the undang test but then here i am, wasting my time, i haven't touched the book hahaha. but it seems like i'm not the only one XD the friends i met when i went for the undang ceramah, came to ask me if i've had my undang test, and i was like no...... and they both said me too lmao, quite funny bcos i thought i'm the only lazy one that cannot be define cos like you got all the free time and stuff and you don't want to go to the test lmao to drive wtf, i'm so jealous of people who can drive you know, but still HERE I AM SITTING IN FRONT OF MY LAPTOP HAVEN'T BATH ALSO HAHAHA

then the scholarship forms...... ugh, it's soooooooooo troublesome, so many things to be done, and i haven't finished them yet ;-; omg forgive me T.T

OMG WHAT HAVE I DONE T.T i'm wasting my youth wtf hahahahah

and i think i rust already, i haven't gone out for 2days liao, oh, old rusty me, forgot how to talk already hahaha kua zhang

YAY BOO BOO ARE COMING BACK FROM THE FREAKING LONGASS CAMP LOL
omg can't wait for it!　:D
prepared my freaking ears to die bcos 2 tired of listening lmao hahahaha !!!
can't wait for my darlings to come back and then we can finally go out and have fun! even though i've had fun already but it was without them t.t and it didn't feel like fun even though it was fun ok what am i saying!

oh and i'm so blessed!! bcos my father doesn't have a payslip, so i have to find an alternate way to prove his income... and there i was, lost in the middle of the jungle T.T and then i went to ask my super nice friend yeechia!! thank you so much :'( helped me alot, thanks for everything!!!
and it's nice to know that i'm not the only one who hasn't decided on what to study wtf haha, abit evil but HAHAHA it's true ma, to know that you still have friends whom are as lost as i am T.T
dwelling in my freaking korean dramas how can they be so nice XD HAHAHA
ok lah that's all for now!

and i can't wait for my siblings to...... HEHEHEHEH
ok lah can let that go already, since it hasn't been mention in some time, he had the heart ma that's all it matters! you shouldn't be bothered by it! it wasn't yours in the beginning anyway :D

goodluck everyone!!! muacks xx

Those days

And I miss those days where I just have to go to church and hang out with them!! I'm scared as I almost forgot how it feels to be in the crowd and be as bubbly and noisy as I was again.

BUT NO, I'm still that bubbly and noisy anyway HAHA

 

 

HAHAHA THIS ONE BCOS I WAS CONNECTING WIFI

AND THE TIME WHEN MY LIFE WAS ALL ABOUT MAPLE HAHA 

And that's about it, idk i was feeling nostalgic all of a sudden and decided to dig all the old photos out hehehe

And i'm feeling confused again, should i just take a language course itself? or should i major in a subject and then a language course as my sub....

:(

Procastinate

Yep, exactly, have just shifted my focus from researching my studies to facebook and to this. And it freaking annoys me when I know I can't deal with all this shit that are currently on my mind. It disturbs me so much grrrrr. But then I know all these troubles came from nothing, it's all been brought out by yours truly argh.

SERVES ME RIGHT!! T.T
There isn't any other phrase that is more suitable than that ^

Grrr huo gai!!! You gave them the chance to disturb your freaking mind when you could just have your mind at peace.

This is so annoying and I couldn't think of anything else at the moment, it is so freaking embarassing wtf  zzzzzzz

Anyway, my phone issssssss not young anymore HAHA so he's having problems every here and then. So I was freaking out since I have SO MANY photos aka memories in it!!! I can't risk to lose them, and I found out the google+ and auto backup photo thing is pretty cool. It doesn't have any limit (or so I knew) and it helps you to back up in your google account including the stupid thing I've just screenshot HAHA

AND I FREAKING
UGH
CANNOT
DESCRIBE
MY
MOOD

Ok can liao cus they say happiness is depends on you one ya yes i am happy and i will be

Feeling happy is the best revenge
NAH SAY DAO LIKE I'M VERY WICKED LIKE THAT NO
But I just don't want to be sad or disappointed or whatever negative emotions.
I DESERVE BETTER THAN THAT. Gosh you knew it since the start omg it's so narcissistic to say it here but yes I definitely deserve better than that.

:D Cheer up
xxxx back to Jenn HAHAHA

CAN YOU BELIEVE IT

ok there was so much shock and amusement yesterday and I'm too lazy to repeat everything after I've repeated to like 3 or 4 person HAHAHA.
OMG I HAVE TO

so at first, I wanted to become a translator as i see it as an interest of mine, which is reeeeeeeeally rare since I rarely have ANY interest other than sleeping wtf HAHA. but then there are SO many rocks out there blocking my way. The first thing is, it's rare in Asia, or rather Malaysia? So there aren't much course to choose from. And then the career, they've told me that the career path is too small and risky and narrow lah. And others but I forgot heehe.

BUT THEN IT SEEMS LIKE EVERYTHING'S BEEN ARRANGED FOR ME!!!!
So firstly, my sister who doesn't want to interrupt with my choices of course actually asked me to become a translator, she said that translators are needy right now, and the pay is rather high.
N I WUS LIEK WOT?????? WOT U SEY!!!!! WOT U SEY TEL MI AGEN
And she freaking left me with my O-shaped mouth HAHAHA So I went on and on to get reassuring from her. Like it really is the right choice for me to take the course lah, and she said yes.
So then I went on to google to see if any local U has this course, and yes there are. But the course sucks because it's English > Malay and vice versa zzzz which I would never imagine myself taking it.
Then I started searching for U overseas, and I came to A LOT of U's that have this course, since like this isn't a rare choice for them, but for us (Asians? Malaysians?) it is.
So I came through this U called RMIT Uni which located in Melbourne, Australia. And it seems so have quite a reputation on their T&I studies! So I went on to research about it and I saw that they're coming to Malaysia to hold an expo, or fair. KL had one but it's already passed, and the next one would be at Penang which is soooo far away from where I live, 8hours by car zzz, I cannot even imagine how pain my butt would be. And then I found out that they actually go to SG too!!!
AND NOTE THAT BEFORE MY SIS TOLD ME ABOUT IT, I'VE DECIDED TO GO TO SG LIKE SUPER SPONTANEOUSLY, I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY DID I DECIDE TO GO OR WHERE TO GO BUT THEN I JUST WANT TO, SO I TOLD XW AND SHE ASKED HER MOTHER AND SHE AGREED LIKE W/O ANY QUESTIONS DEN I ASK MY DAD HE WAS ALSO VERY OKAY WITH IT!!!!!!!
Den I checked the date where they're going to hold the fair AND FOUND OUT IT'S TODAY LOL. AND IT'S LOCATED AT VICTORIA STREET WHICH IS WHERE I SUPPOSED TO GO T.T

AND I THANK YOU FOR THAT OMG, it's like You're pulling me back to what I want and it's like you telling me YES to my choice!!! And that's strengthen my will even more than other could!!! :D

AND JUS NOW LIKE REALLY JUST JUST JUST NOW, boo T told me they're going to meet a freaking translator tomorrow and she could help me to ask her questions, which I needed so much right now because I don't know much about becoming a translator! AND THEN Jiachyi seems to know about translator too and she encouraged me to take the course T.T
You don't know how much that mean to me!!! Because when I first made the choice, I was super discouraged by people and then even I gave up on the thought of it. BUT THEN right after the night I prayed all these events came up. And I must say it's no coincidence but what He's already planned for me!
He knew what problems I'll be facing, and he cleared the path for me :')

Thank you for still taking care of me so much even though i've drifted away from you, I do no promises but Father I will do my best to become your again obedient daughter! :D Amen

I guess this is why I've been drowning myself with books and dramas, to have my mind occupied, so that I wouldnt think of those useless shits.
Yes that is some useless rubbish that I shouldn't be bothered, but it still bothers me wtf am I saying zzz but ya i hate it when it's this late and I still refuse to sleep for God knows why.

Gonna go and do some thing, no clue yet

We are infinite.

Uhhh, I've just finished watching 'The Perks of Being a Wallflower', and to be honest, I was shocked, startled, amused, by this movie. I'm not sure if it's in a good way or what. but it isn't what I've expected to watch. but yeah, it's pretty amazing, it's a mind-blowing movie to me, it makes me think lol. becuz since i've quit my job, i've been slacking around at my home, and I didn't think much wtf hahahah as in i haven't used my brain for such a long time (no)

Tomorrow i'm going to get my February's salary, and I can't feel any particular emotions. Numb, might be the best word I could use right now. there are SO many things for me to consider, to decide at this moment, that I decided to ditch ALL of  the problems and shut them out. I can't wait to meet shushan!

When I think about tomorrow, I think about the transport, I thought, who could send us to JB? Yes there are definitely buses and taxis but no, you know i'm hoping for more. You know what I'm expecting to get. BUT NO, that'd lead to so much more troubles and annoying stuffs. I'm trying so hard to suppress that freaking thought. THERE'S NO WAY THAT COULD HAPPEN, STOP MAKING YOURSELF TO LOOK ANY DUMBER.

We accept the love we think we deserve.

oh gosh this is so emotional, like a wave of emotions hitting the shore of my mind wtf i don't make any sense gah i still haven't decided what course to take help???!?!?!?! T.T

New chapter.

Alright firstly, I quit my job as a waitress and back in Pontian all over again~ Which makes me really glad to be honest. :/ It doesn't mean that I'm not happy with my job ah, I think half half lah, of course there are happy moments and mad/angry/sad/disappointed *inserts more negative emotions* moments also what.
BUT, to be honest, I don't feel sad upon leaving, which my colleagues think are very cold-blooded. Eh, to be honest, I'm a quite emotional person, and stuffs like leaving friends usually really saddens me.
AND I don't know why I'm not sad at all, like AT ALLLLLLLLLLL, I even felt waves of excitements hitting me instead heehee. Oh and a guy friend of mine, my colleague lah, he even cried LOL. which makes me feel more cold-blooded than ever HAHHA. It feels really weird tho, since I usually am the cry baby when it comes to stuffs like this.

Alright then, to my troubles, I managed to save some money $$$$ with the pay of my first month, and also my angpau money lah, gave my parents freaking RM 400 T.T Now I know how generous they are leh, since the amount of money they gave me since I was born is like............like............ uncountable wtf. Then even though I feel super sad one to give out my money, but I don't regret it! :D It's a token of mine for them what~ (even thou my dad was the one who asked me to give him money wtf hahahahah) *feeling adult* NOT HAPPY THO.

aaaaaaand, there's this item which has been on my wishlist since forever HAHA.

CONVERSE SNEAKERS!
And I finally bought them with my pay! :D And it feels awesome hehe. I bought the kid's version which is the same as the adult's version except with the price. IT'S SO MUCH CHEAPER COMPARED TO THE ADULT'S VERSION =.= -Proud small-sized feet moment- I saved like RM50 wtf, ya lah i'm this cheapskate~~~~

Ok talk about yesterday ah, it was my last working day, and my parents came to fetch me back to Pontian. And then I freaking locked the car keys inside the car WTF HAHAHAHHA. Ok let me google what that is wait ah!!! TRUNKS YAH TRUNKS! You know hor  the car key got the button can straight open the trunk/boots one right, then when i was busy placing my luggage in, my father was there asking me to put down the things i'm holding with my hands so it'd be easier for me to arrange things properly. THEN THE CAR KEY WAS IN MY HAND, AND I PUT IT IN THE TRUNK TOO WTF THEN I CLOSED THE TRUNK WTF THEN I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW UNTIL MY FATHER ASKED FOR THE KEYS WTF HAHAHAH IT'S FUNNY AND STUPID AT THE SAME TIME. but my father was really mad so I didn't even dare to laugh, I was apologizing all that time T.T and my dad was still mad so I cried T.T then i thought it was funny since I didn't even cry upon leaving but then cried after leaving HAHAHA GEDDIT?????
Then my uncle came all the way to JB just to give us the spare car keys T.T I really can't be more grateful cos if he didn't give us we'd all have to stay at my hostel HAHAHAH then my father would be so mad at me T.T

and this leads to another incident, ok not really an incident lah but this thing troubles me zzzzz and i'm so troubled by it
WHY AM I SO STUPID T.T I shouldn't have done it......... Damn all the freaking temptations T.T
Oh btw i'm really into this phrase!!! 'sweet nothing' I only knew it's a song title but I didn't know what its meaning is, so I googled it and i'm fascinated by the meaning wtf ya i know i'm so easily contented right!!!! shy ah!!! HAHAH
ok back to the point, ya RIGHT it's about that freaking stupid ugh i'm not gonna type here later you all laugh at me how

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ok bye!!! till next time X
haven't blogged like this for a long time so i felt really good hehe muacks goodnight!
OH AND I'M ALSO TROUBLED BY WHAT TO STUDY T.T ok bye for real 

你到底想怎样 到底想怎样 到底想怎样！！！！！！
不回是哪招？？？？ 说骗话是哪招？？？？？哄我开心安慰我是哪招！！！

What do you want from me T.T IM GETTIN CRAY CRAYYYY

Xiao xiao niao

Wao, time really does fly. I didnt know that it's been two months since I came to work in JB. It was so difficult in the beginning. People left, stuffs happened. But I stood strong.
And now when I look back, it seems like it's just yesterday, like no joke.
I looked into the previous entries of mine, I must say that it's been a dramatic chapter of my life. My life is still ongoing, unpredictable, it's still changing, leading to an unknown destination, but I know it's something worth waiting for! :D
I don't know what would happen next. I will just sit, wait and then see.
Stranger might become your best friend, and your best friend might end up a stranger to you.
It's unpredictable, I must emphasise.....

Argh I thought I said not to reply his comment BUT I ACCIDENTALLY DID ARGH SOB T.T
Goodnight! X