坐在这里看向窗外 想由衷的说谢谢祢 

我的主

虽然我是一个很坏的christian 虽然我一点也不christian 虽然我很少去教堂敬拜你 虽然我很少follow你的rules 甚至大大的违反了他们

可是今天不想说道歉的话 想说感谢的话

谢谢祢从来不放弃我

谢谢祢把这些好人放在我身边

谢谢祢给了我那么好的男朋友

谢谢祢给了我那么好的父母和家人

谢谢祢总是在人家不理解我的时候 理解我

谢谢祢因为我还活着 我还健全 我还健康 

谢谢祢让我衣食无忧

谢谢祢让我现在每天过得心里很舒服

谢谢祢默默的守护 就算我常常忘了你

谢谢祢透过人们教导我处事

谢谢祢让我不想变得跟他们一样

祈祷你

给我改变的力量

打败恶魔的力量

战胜自己的力量

因为祢的存在 让我的世界变得很不一样 

很庆幸在我这一生认识了祢 

即使我还是那只迷路的小羔羊

谢谢祢一路以来的指导

谢谢祢在我低落悲伤时告诉我路的方向 

Thank you for all the wonderful things that has happened in my life, and for those coming up later. 

以前说过千千万万不会做的事情 通通都做了 

不怪别人 只怪自己 :) 

只怪自己意志力不够强大

对你的faith不够强大

但是还是谢谢祢 让我就算再犯了罪的情况下 还是过得好好的 

祈祷你

可以让我不那么judgemental

对自己有信心点

对你有信心点

勤劳多一点

自律多一点

爱别人如爱自己多一点

爱

祢多一点 

just watched True Story, a movie that's based on a true story lmao
but not really, and so are the other movies that render themselves directed based on true stories actually.
i read an article about it, the writer was someone who followed the crime in 2011, he collected news about his trials, and for 7 years he'd repeatedly read about them lol. that's insane HAHHA
he said that the film was about Longo (the bad guy who killed his wife and 3 kids)'s soul and the thin line between truth and lie. but actually why on earth would it be about that? he said the sins he committed, 1 was lying and the other was killing, both are relatively the same (???)
so he thinks that the movie should focus on HOW and WHY he did it and not the 2.
idk la i think everyone has different perspectives on stuffs and his perspective definitely inspired me ahhaha
i'm not someone who would have a really impressive perspective tbh, i just follow?? sort of XD
and i wanna read the book! it's True Story by Michael Finkel, idk if i spelt his name correctly but that's that!
you guys should watch it it's a REEEEEEally deep movie ~

About my boyfriend

我的男朋友是一个对我很很很很贴心的人

做的都是很多小小的很贴心的事情 如果你没有仔细观察还是发现的话 真的会一不小心就会看漏眼
在你睡觉的时候看video听歌会带耳机 怕吵醒你
在你睡醒前帮你倒好水 帮你买好早餐
你交代的东西他一定一定会记得 因为他会把你每一个小小requests都当成他重要的missions
记着你喜欢或者不喜欢的东西
记得你讨厌吃的东西 记得你最爱吃的东西
记得你上个礼拜想着要吃的那个pizza
forever there for me, literally!
为你放弃整片沙滩wtf啊哈哈哈哈
其实就是为你放弃所有东西
超级以你为中心!
你讨厌的人他绝对不会喜欢
晚上你抢他的被的时候不会生气不会抢回来 然后自己伤风哈哈哈
晚上睡着的时候 睡相不好的你怎么踢他怎么踹他怎么打他他还是会粘回去抱紧你
想要吵醒我但是却又不舍得叫醒我的白痴
在一个美女众多的照片里面发现连你都没有发现的自己的存在
在一个很多人的video里面spot到连你都没有注意到的自己
很没有安全感 很怕你被别人抢走 虽然他很相信你
很尽量的改变 因为怕我不喜欢
每次annoy我就停不下来的猪
常常生不知名的闷气 通常都是因为你可是他又不好开口哈哈哈
对你超级无敌好
平时懒惰得煮东西扫地洗衣晒衣 可是为了你全都做了

惦记着你的礼物虽然那个月超没有钱

因为钱都花在我身上了哈哈哈 

买h&m 吃香喝辣 之类的

可是每次都说不花在你身上要花在谁的身上

喜欢用你的电话拍丑丑的照片然后问你 帅吗

会拍他觉得很typical很讨厌的照片哈哈哈

虽然你的目的只是想annoy他

会帮你拍一万次tourist照也不会骂你的男朋友

被你骂一万次拍得角度不好也不会生气的男朋友

surprise了从来没有人成功surprise过的你 

骗你说爸爸的office打来

需要跑腿男 

其实跑去买蛋糕

跑去写卡片

还给我来个小剧场假假让我看冰箱里面没有蛋糕

其实蛋糕藏在后面的冰箱哈哈哈

可是你根本就不知道有两个冰箱 

拿蛋糕上来的那一刹那都已经够感动的了 

因为你以为他没有plan哈哈哈

读了这个卡片之后哭到七零八乱

鼻涕乱流

他很匆忙的跑下楼叫你赶快在他不在的时候读

弄了红鸡蛋 

煮了鸡蛋面线给你吃

就因为你说你想家

你说妈妈都会煮给你吃

一直跟你说很难吃很难吃

不想吃就算了只是让你吃一个意思

趁你睡觉的时候 

跑去买早餐给你吃

你一直想吃的油条milo还有roti

只想说
You're a very significant presence for the 8 months of my life that you'd participated in.
I have had a lot of struggles within the 8 months and you know every single cents of them.
You've never given up on the relationship like I did just because it was difficult.
You told me you don't want to lose me over such reasons, you told me you think the relationship worths more than the problem we were facing.
You told me you would change for me, into anything that I would like you to be.
You even told me you would try to accept Christ for me.
And you have never given me empty promises :)
I thank God for you in my life, I believe God has brought you into my life for a reason, which is to stay <3 nbsp="" p="">Forever is a really easy word to say, but to keep that promise of forever ain't easy at all.
现在说永远还太远
但是你是我就是我现在最大最想留住的幸福
希望我们可以一直好好的
希望你以后对我的态度不会改变
希望你以后还是那么喜欢我
希望你以后还是像现在一样可以接受我的一切缺点和不完美
希望我们可以长长久久
希望以后可以有一个有你的未来

未来还太远 很难预测
but i'll work hard for a future with you in it!
你讲的啊你以后会赚大钱养我让我在家翘二郎腿的hor
你说为了一个比较好的将来会努力上进
谢谢你为我做出的每个改变
谢谢你告诉我我changed you for the better,
that you are a better person than you were last time.
因为我觉得一段好的relationship里面
就是双方都一起improve着 一起变更好

我想一直跟你一起improve 一起成为更好的人
thanks for everything baobao :')
for the thoughts, for everything.