Saturday, 21 May 2016

觉得好累好压力好喘不过气不知道该怎么办
全部都习惯了熟悉了我觉得比喜欢还可怕
可能我还幼稚 有着现代人的坏了就丢的想法
却要逼着自己实行坏了就修的计划
觉得他太好 我不值得他对我这么好
因为自己愧疚 自己知道没办法爱他像他爱我一样那么多
所以告诉自己不许伤害人家 
可是压迫感真的蛮强的
有着想安安稳稳平平静静过一生的男朋友 却是个向往自由不受束缚想轰轰烈烈过一生的人
性格上有这么大的差距 真的还可以坚持下去吗 可以坚持多久 
唉 真的好想什么都不想 睡醒了我们就是最适合彼此的彼此 
我懦弱 所以遇事只会选择逃避 选择容易的那条路 选择分手
可是他就完全相反 遇到分叉路口 只会跟着我走我要走的路 即使不是自己喜欢的 即使对他来说是最困难的
看不起我自己这样的性格 却不知道要怎么改
好乱好累好讨厌好烦 
眼睛好累头脑却不停的转
好想睡可是又好精神
性格不同 世界不同的两个人
真的可以走下去吗?

Thursday, 10 March 2016

I'm always ungrateful and unappreciative.....
I need to start to be grateful more and appreciate every little things more.
Yah i only talk about keyang on this blog nowadays but he really is playing a huge part in my life, literally.
We're ALWAYS chatting. You know the couples who only text each other probably at night bcos they had their own stuff to do in the day? 
We're the exact opposite!
He always has the time for me and places me as his top priority
For that I'm super grateful!!!
He always WANTS to talk to me!!! 
I think I've started to take it for granted, and when i look back now, he's so niceeeee
He's always there for me while I might disappear randomly in a convo :/
Aaaaaa
Xie xie bao bei
Thank you for trying to maintain the r/s by not changing a single thing you've done since the beginning of this r/s 
People have always told me that 你们这样只是热恋期 久了就不会了
And I'm proud to say that I've proved them wrong!!! B-) 

变的应该是我 
I need to find the old me back, and try not to be an ass to you :b

好想好想你 




Sunday, 7 February 2016

Our personalities are sooo different, I guess that's what make us 'US' then.
I'm kind of guilty, bcos whenever I'm out hanging out with my friends, you're feeling so bored at home and yet I can't do anything to help. 
You're shy, and I love it, I don't want to change that part of you. 
But deep down, somewhere in my heart hopes that you'd open up to my friends and be more initiative to your friends.
Okay the part about my friends, I'm the one with fault too, bcos I didn't introduce you well to the convo, I should've try to include you to the convo, instead of just speaking my head off with them. 
Leaving you super awkward there alone :/ 
Ugh I'm so selfish 
I'd love to go back and do what I could've done haiz 
Ok this part I'll improve!! As to the part where you're super passive to your friends, suan le la they're your friends, you decide what you want to do with them laaaa~

Okay onto jealousy!
Oh boy aren't you a big 醋桶 hahahaha
Sometimes it's funny to see how you get jealous over all the details that I'd never seen, but it gets tiring over time :/
You're mad at me bcos of the stuffs I did unintentionally or stuffs I don't even remember myself doing it.... 
Sometimes they are just so freaking ridiculous that I want to rip my hair off while screaming 'SIAO AH' at you lol
Ahem comment stuff ahem
About guy friends..... I really don't know what to do about that, you said you'll try to let go and be not so bothered by it but still, 讲很容易
It's not that I don't believe that you really want to change!!!! 
It's just that changing something is already difficult, changing a lifetime habit will be extremely difficult. 
I've already tried my best to avoid all male contacts, but still you can dig stuffs out to get jealous :/

Aaaaaa okay I just want you to know that you're really really important to me, and i don't think I can find anybody else like you to replace your position in my life

谢谢你那么在乎我 那么疼我 那么照顾我 
我知道你都是因为在乎我才会这么生气这么吃醋
 谢谢你告诉我你愿意改掉这个爱吃醋的习惯
in return我会跟每个男生很清楚的划清界限!as always lol
希望你可以放心多一点 吃醋少一点 😅