anyway

what's your definition of being successful? 

i think most of us (or maybe just me???) defines being successful as um rich???? famous?? 

duno leh recently i just realized how much time i'd wasted, or am wasting. 

time for this year passes like WEWWWW damn fast like formula 1 race. 

it was just CNY then suddenly i got into degree and then suddenly the end of semester 1 is coming already. 

hen kuai lor shi jian!!!

all those troubles which i render significant and what used to make me worry so much had actually disappeared??? gone with time 

and the troubles i've got nowadays, i have another one to share with 

who thinks for me from me with me 

and tbh after all those years of being single, it was really difficult to get used to it 

it feels great of course 

and i'm so glad there's always someone there whom i know i can fully trust 

my midterm tests sucked 

my semester 1 sucked 

i have to get myself together!?!?!? 

not trying to blaming him but,

ever since we've got together, 

i don't even go to hang out with my friends anymore

except for the one living upstairs and the one living beside me 

Kendra!!! i missed kendra sooooo much !!!! 

ytd she posted a really stupid picture of us at like 3am

she probably also got really nostalgic and thought of me ba

we were really mad, REALLY REALLY MAD HAHAHHA

we literally act like idiots and zhi zhang (no offence to the real ones sorry sorry) or even mother and daughter, boyfriend and girlfriend, princess and servant, dog and master hahahahha

omg hahahah it was so much fun

i've heard so much from my dance club seniors 

they said that the friends they were really really close with during their foundation studies 

after enterring degree, have also become their hi-bye friends

that's what i really don't want

i dont really care for the others actually 

but kendra?!?! she meant so much more to me

but she's got her boyfriend and i have mine now

whenever i'm free i go to KL

whenever she's free, or rather, every moment of hers, she spends it with nicholas 

and we're happily doing so 

it's just seems like 

we dont have time for ourselves anymore 

is this actually normal???? for couples??? 

lesser friends?? :| 

my bf is wonderfully clinged to me and i'm unexpectedly glad to let him clinged XD

and probably the same to kendra 

maybe i just missed the times where, just shushan and i, 2 to the others

and then we had kendra, 3 to the kampar world 

and we didnt had transport 

we had to walk/cycle/take bus to everywhere we wanted

if we wanted to dine, we had to walk all the way out, and then chatted non-stop on our way out 

we'd suddenly crave for something to eat, and then think of every possible way to get there and eat haahhaha 

we'd take cab just to go to watch a movie 

it's a luxury 

as the cinema is reeeeally really far 

and i appreciate every car rides my friends gave me 

i met lovely bus drivers, lovely taxi drivers, lovely people 

i felt so blessed for everything 

now? 

seems like i cannot stop asking for more 

we have daily car rides to uni, to eat, to tesco, to cinema, to EVERYWHERE 

but we're isolated here at KWC 

the only friends i meet daily are austin chris chunyeh sarah shushan and sometimes cwl 

i used to take cab all the way to 1017 (kendra's hostel) to spend time with her and her housemates

and she was so truthfully happy for me to squeeze in her little bed 

now it just seems like everything is so easy to obtain.

and i lost the ability to appreciate

i appreciate austin for driving us everywhere even though it's the same way but he could've refused to 

he'd remember to takeaway for me whenever i'm lazy to go out 

what else i really cant think of any anymore ahhaha 

ummmm

i dont even really talk to shushan nowadays,

she talks to her bf i talk to mine

we rarely talk unless i start the conversation 

and she'd mostly be listening 

and not telling me anything :(

but i'm just that untrustworthy i dont blame her 

and i appreciate everything

im healthy im alive im loved im blessed 

i have a shelter

i have food to eat 

i can breathe

i can walk

i can talk

i can type

i can play dota! 

i cannnnn drink hahaha

i can stay in this man piao liang de room hahahah 

ummm 

i have a clean toilet bcos i wash it everytime? hahaha 

my room's a mess thou it always is .... 

i havee alot more :) 

oooo and i forgot where did i see this quote from but it's 

“我不是什么好人，你会觉得我的人好，是因为我有帮助你的能力，所以你才会觉得我是好人”

quite true leh if you think of it

if someone doesnt have anything that we want

let's say i want to to borrow tutorial answers from A 

but she doesnt have it, so i wont think that A is a good person

but B has it, B lent it to me when nobody else did, so i think that B is a good person

a good person to me

but so is everybody else 

if one doesnt have what you want

is he/she still a 好人 to you? 

what defines a nice person anyway