i think most of us (or maybe just me???) defines being successful as um rich???? famous??
duno leh recently i just realized how much time i'd wasted, or am wasting.
time for this year passes like WEWWWW damn fast like formula 1 race.
it was just CNY then suddenly i got into degree and then suddenly the end of semester 1 is coming already.
hen kuai lor shi jian!!!
all those troubles which i render significant and what used to make me worry so much had actually disappeared??? gone with time
and the troubles i've got nowadays, i have another one to share with
who thinks for me from me with me
and tbh after all those years of being single, it was really difficult to get used to it
it feels great of course
and i'm so glad there's always someone there whom i know i can fully trust
my midterm tests sucked
my semester 1 sucked
i have to get myself together!?!?!?
not trying to blaming him but,
ever since we've got together,
i don't even go to hang out with my friends anymore
except for the one living upstairs and the one living beside me
Kendra!!! i missed kendra sooooo much !!!!
ytd she posted a really stupid picture of us at like 3am
she probably also got really nostalgic and thought of me ba
we were really mad, REALLY REALLY MAD HAHAHHA
we literally act like idiots and zhi zhang (no offence to the real ones sorry sorry) or even mother and daughter, boyfriend and girlfriend, princess and servant, dog and master hahahahha
omg hahahah it was so much fun
i've heard so much from my dance club seniors
they said that the friends they were really really close with during their foundation studies
after enterring degree, have also become their hi-bye friends
that's what i really don't want
i dont really care for the others actually
but kendra?!?! she meant so much more to me
but she's got her boyfriend and i have mine now
whenever i'm free i go to KL
whenever she's free, or rather, every moment of hers, she spends it with nicholas
and we're happily doing so
it's just seems like
we dont have time for ourselves anymore
is this actually normal???? for couples???
lesser friends?? :|
my bf is wonderfully clinged to me and i'm unexpectedly glad to let him clinged XD
and probably the same to kendra
maybe i just missed the times where, just shushan and i, 2 to the others
and then we had kendra, 3 to the kampar world
and we didnt had transport
we had to walk/cycle/take bus to everywhere we wanted
if we wanted to dine, we had to walk all the way out, and then chatted non-stop on our way out
we'd suddenly crave for something to eat, and then think of every possible way to get there and eat haahhaha
we'd take cab just to go to watch a movie
it's a luxury
as the cinema is reeeeally really far
and i appreciate every car rides my friends gave me
i met lovely bus drivers, lovely taxi drivers, lovely people
i felt so blessed for everything
now?
seems like i cannot stop asking for more
we have daily car rides to uni, to eat, to tesco, to cinema, to EVERYWHERE
but we're isolated here at KWC
the only friends i meet daily are austin chris chunyeh sarah shushan and sometimes cwl
i used to take cab all the way to 1017 (kendra's hostel) to spend time with her and her housemates
and she was so truthfully happy for me to squeeze in her little bed
now it just seems like everything is so easy to obtain.
and i lost the ability to appreciate
i appreciate austin for driving us everywhere even though it's the same way but he could've refused to
he'd remember to takeaway for me whenever i'm lazy to go out
what else i really cant think of any anymore ahhaha
ummmm
i dont even really talk to shushan nowadays,
she talks to her bf i talk to mine
we rarely talk unless i start the conversation
and she'd mostly be listening
and not telling me anything :(
but i'm just that untrustworthy i dont blame her
and i appreciate everything
im healthy im alive im loved im blessed
i have a shelter
i have food to eat
i can breathe
i can walk
i can talk
i can type
i can play dota!
i cannnnn drink hahaha
i can stay in this man piao liang de room hahahah
ummm
i have a clean toilet bcos i wash it everytime? hahaha
my room's a mess thou it always is ....
i havee alot more :)
oooo and i forgot where did i see this quote from but it's
“我不是什么好人，你会觉得我的人好，是因为我有帮助你的能力，所以你才会觉得我是好人”
quite true leh if you think of it
if someone doesnt have anything that we want
let's say i want to to borrow tutorial answers from A
but she doesnt have it, so i wont think that A is a good person
but B has it, B lent it to me when nobody else did, so i think that B is a good person
a good person to me
but so is everybody else
if one doesnt have what you want
is he/she still a 好人 to you?
what defines a nice person anyway
