讨功劳讨讨讨讨屁啦

真的很讨厌 别人每次自愿帮你之后 会时不时的提起 真的很讨厌 那当初我干脆不要你帮忙 气死

早知道你会这样子回来挖苦我 和我讨功劳 我宁愿不要你帮忙 lol

真的很讨厌很扫兴你知道吗？

下次你有事情不要找我！

就是这句话 哇靠气死我 不知道你们明不明白 可是我真的很讨厌 

我当然肯定绝对下次不会再找你帮我

求我我都不要给你帮！！！

哇靠 火真的是飙上来啊 ==

之前还有一个 讲我无事不登三宝殿 很好 那下次你就不要来找我 有事也请不要找我 没事也不要 

真的很生气 把一个人当朋友 在有需要的时候要他帮忙 居然得到的是这个也 你干脆讲不要就好了干嘛绕一圈回来这样讲我 靠

男的都可以淹掉了啦

你找我聊天的时候我有没有讲你啦 要从我这里得到什么 好感吗？！那我不是要讲你也是无事不登三宝殿 白目zzzzz

气死我！！！！！很生气！！！！

下次要讨功劳的 “好朋友” 请不要帮我 气死 还是你前面就跟我讲 你之后会讨功劳j 这样就好了 不要装到有多大气拜托 之后再讨功劳只会显得你有多小气zzzz

我要气晕了

I'm a sinner!!!

刚才本来对自己很失望的 不能说现在不失望了 只能说没那么严重了 谢谢God让我看到的那个article！！真的获益不浅啊

就是我在这里讲真的 都不敢和别人讲我是Christian 因为我不觉得自己像Christian 然后感觉自己不配 因为犯了太多罪 可是我看到的那个article真的把整件事clarify了 we humans have a sinful nature because of Adam, that's why we are always sinning. But Jesus is there, to forgive our sins as long as we repent. And this world aka Satan is trying to trick you into believing that if you're not perfect, you cannot be a Christian, becaus of the world's view towards Christians. Christians have always been seen as a perfect image, those who do not sin, who are forgiving, and who are generous. But no, no humans are perfect, that's why we're humans duh???!?! There is only our Holy God who is the perfect one, he does not sin, he forgives, he loves and he accepts. 

And yes, as I'm no one to judge anyone, I  do sin, just like every other humans. For I am just as guilty as every other human. 

对啊 我凭什么决定Christian的standard？又有谁能够说自己是纯洁的 是完美的 是不犯罪的？ 如果你觉得自己没有犯罪 你在欺骗你自己 同时也在欺骗你的神 

所以我大声地承认 向世人说 我是罪人 我犯罪 可是in the end, I repent to my God, I strive to not sin, I strive to stay pure!!!! 

我不要再judge其他人了啦怎么办 要怎么节制自己的舌头！！

我不要用同一张称赞神的嘴 来gossip别人 it makes everything else worthless.

Because your talk is cheap.

我好爱你！！！真的不知道该怎么办的时候 you showed me the right path, and tell me you're there for me, tell me I shouldn't be ashamed of who I am, tell me humans are not perfect and it's okay to sin as long as I turn back to you. 

Father I love you so much, I want to behave like you 

Father I pray that you would give me the strength to stop gossiping and judging others. Father I want to love the others like you love me!!

还有hor 你们谁知道the solutions to envy and jealousy 的 我尝试google可是好像没有能够有共鸣的 如果你们知道哪里有的请告诉我哟哈哈哈 我try翻我的youth bible！！

晚安 and my redeemer lives!!!! :D can't wait!!!! 

Going home

Yea that's right I'm going home this Friday!!! 

But when is my heart going back to Jesus, like fully? 

I'm so envious of those who went to pastor Sebastian that day de yf :( I also wanna be there and listen to his sermons again... :( 

I forgot how it is to be in a church, I haven't been to one since a month ago, or longer? And I'm ashamed about this.

I have this weird thing going on in me, I don't like to tell people that I'm a Christian, 

1. Mostly everyone don't consider people as Christians if you aren't baptized. But I do consider myself as one (not so sure now since I haven't been to church and there's nothing else to prove that I'm a Christian)

2. I don't behave like one so who am I to tell people I'm a Christian?

It's mainly about the second point.

I miss being in church... I'm finding myself excuses to excuse from church, I'm so ashamed by this

Dear lord, I miss you so so much, when's the last time that I've sat down and listened to stories of yours?? 

Father I'm so sorry, I don't know what else to say, I'm sorry for all my sins, my disobeying behaviors. Father... What should I do? All the temptations are waiting for me out there, and now I'm just hiding inside, and it takes no time for them to reach me, and eventually indulge me. Father what do I do? To be honest, I know what the solution is, but I'm not doing anything that helps. 

Father please forgive my sins, and I pray that you will bless me with the determination to go against the temptations. Father I want to behave like you, and one day I can finally tell others I'm a Christian without feeling shameful deep down. Father, I will once again tell the others I'm a Christian, once I got back to the right path. Before that, I forbid myself to say so, I'm just a bad evil girl, who doesn't obey you.

Father please help me in this tough path, because without you, I alone cannot fulfil this task, and with you, everything will be on the right path. Father please help me and guide me on the right path. I'm externally grateful to you my dear father.

And in Jesus' almighty name I pray, I pray, I pray my dear Lord, amen.