Just be yourself.

Is that what you meant? I think I've got it pretty well. It's kinda hard though. 

Well, firstlyyyyy;

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!! 

Just went through a blogpost from Naomineo, it had me think alot. Yea you came to this world, not to entertain others, not to applause the others. Pretending is tough, and you don't feel happy at all. So why else would you do it? You ask me? I have no idea too, I'm trying to figure it myself. She mentioned this issue; 

I want myself to look good.

Uhm, yes? As what she said, I didn't know when did this started too. =.= SHE ALSO TALKED ABOUT SKINNY, ya lor what's the big deal with that gap between my thighs. ACTUALLY, it meant alot to me.............. That is like, the only thing that assures my skinny-ness. Seriously lol, very scary ah sometimes i look thru my photos, and I look kinda geli cus I'm too skinny. Should I say that, I'm not really happy with the me right now. But, I thought we're supposed to love ourselves!!!!! That's the right thing that I should think and do. POSITIVE YO POSITIVE. 

Why bother to look good? Um, not sure about this yet but I'm sure this will be carried on.(to me) Everyone has their own perspectives, you can't fulfil all their standards right. Some might think you're ugly some might think you're awesome. It would be tiring, to fulfil all their levels and standards. SO WHY?????? WHY MAKE YOURSELF SO TIRED TO MAKE THE OTHERS LIKE YOU. Ok la  I also don't know what's the answer, think yourself la cannot think yourself ah. 

NEVER buy the things that you can't afford.

Lol........ seriously thinks that sentence is pointing me. I don't know how you guys spend, but I sure do know that I spend alot.(for me) Like, out of my budget. I would think of every possible way to gain money, AND THEN SPEND ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL OF THEM. I used to be proud of it, but no, not now. Not sure why would I be proud of it, maybe it makes me feels good, I have this satisfactory when I bought alot of things, spending all my moneys, and carrying alot of plastic bags. Sick -_- Ok la maybe I'm not like those richass-es whom parents can give them money to spend (not directed to anyone, I'm just plain jealous.) and then no need to think one just spend. I actually went to work and spend my own salary and also save from my pocket money. Sounds pretty good huh, not when I used them on useless things tho. 

I'll try to figure out a way aye, to solve all these problems of mine. 

I think I get angry and frustrated pretty soon nowadays, and also I found that I'm really selfish. Depends on to whom though. If it was my besties or family (not including relatives), I don't think I'm selfish. (Not sure also......... -_-) I would be really stingy and selfish to the others one lor, and I think I'm really easy to get angry lol. Sometimes when people don't get what I'm trying to tell them I also get angry. CUS THEY NEVER READ ONE, they can just misunderstand what I'm trying to tell them when I already said sho clearly. =.= Ok la I change this one ok. To change myself into a better person that has a better personality (pffffffft lol) for the sake of the future of Malaysia ahahahahahha, I wrote all my bads on a paper so that would remind myself hehehehehe. So, here's the list! 

BADGIRL:-You spend too much. (SAVE MONEY)-You gossip too much. (SHUT THE F* UP)-You ignore too much messages. (READ THEM AND REPLY)-You care too much about what the others say you are. (IGNORE AND JUST BE YOURSELF)-You are too selfish. (SHARE!!! THINK ABOUT GOD)-You get angry very very very fast. (DEEP BREATHE DEEEEEEEEEEEP BREATHE)-You scold too much f* word. (GET RID OF IT)-You despise people too much. (GIVE UR LOVING TO THEM) -You get jealous of people too easily. (LOL JUST IGNORE AND BE URSELF)-You think too much. (MAKE IT SIMPLE)-You follow too much. (IDK HOW TO SOLVE IT BUT OH WELLS)

Alright! That's all I could think of now! The conclusion is :

Yours sincerely,

xxxxxxxxooooooo

One good turn deserves another.

Wahlao bamboo how can you be so rude har people comfort you leh, still act like that huh!!! PULL BACK PULL BACK ALL MY WORDS HMPF.

Happy Birthday Tricia sai sai hahahahhahaha!!!(Earlier) You pushed away the bikini cake request yourself one ah! Cannot blame me already. :P I just had a really bad day, I think. :( Went to school, and then pakad, and then  latihan sukan, and then tuition. Reached home around 7.30pm............ Super annoyed and also hungry just now -___- Haiyo but all good now!!!! Had a 'short' chat with le senior senior haahhahahahahhahahaha!!! Pray that everything is smooth for you har. And the poor wee wee who is sickkkkkkkkkk, jiayou recover!!!

I did it, again.......... The same old thing. -_- I took out all my new clothes and then put each of them on again LOL. #Ihavenoideawhatimdoing EXACTLY LAH. I did this like n times, also don't know why am I so hardworking ah. Fold the clothes neatly again again and again. And something big (kind of) happened, but it's solvable lah so i'm not really worried over it.

Since I just had a really long and tiring day, I've decided to skip school tomorrow!!!!!!!! YAY AND MOM AGREED!!!! Aiya really very tired mah. Our school very funny one leh, gave us all forms to fill in if our parents allow us to stay back at school to do pakad (school tuition liddat), and then doesn't allow us to fill in not allow. SO FUNNY RIGHT, THEN YOU COULD'VE JUST CARRY ON THE PAKAD W/O THE FORMS MAH. =.=

So much anger when I talk about school ah ugh, my C teacher is really the most kiampak teacher in the world. He uses 15 minutes to solve a question. Why? It's not because that he can't solve it lah. Ok example, he asked, ''Give me the formula of XXXXXX, *name*'' And if the person cannot answer the question, he would continue to find person 2, and then 3, and then 4 and so on. UNTIL HE IS SHIOK ALREADY HOR AND THEN HE STOPS. By then, when he comfirmed everyone cannot solve the question, he would start his nagging. AND THEN FINALLY GIVE US THE ANSWER, AND THEN FINALLY CARRY ON TO THE NEXT QUESTION UGHHHHHHHHHH. Wahlao super frustrated, can't you just let us know the answer and then carry on, save time also mah!!!! By then he used half an hour for a question, I exaggerated of course hahahahah! But almost lah almost half an hour. =.= And he likes to use his super kiampak face to nag nag nag nag nag, about the rules lahhhhhhhhhh, and then scares us with the rules and sorts. I wish I can select to not hear what he's talking about. GIBBERISH AH. -___- But okay lah sometimes he is really gentle also, SOMETIMES. LOL

CHINESE NEW YEAR- 3DAYS LEFT. AHHHHHHHH EXCITED!!!!!!!!!
Um, it's the last year already what! Why should we behave like that lehhhhhhhhh, can't we just stay as a group? It's not like we have alot of chinese students in Form 5! We have been in the same school, same community (maybe not) for 4 years, familiar or not, we've still been through alot of ups and downs what! Haiyoooooooooooo. Can't we just stay as one until the end? No? :(

Have to pass up Moral folio already but I'm still waiting for the papers to be done, ok Imma go and check what can I draw in my papers! Hehehhehe boa noite! :D xx

Nilai murni

Um there's this subject called P.M. in my school, it's in one of the subjects for SPM. I PERSONALLY think it's quite useless.(or is it XD) The things P.M teaches are super useless one, like you really use them in your real life, maybe some of them yes lah, but........

Oh ya and then subject is Pendidikan Moral, which teaches you moral values lor, ask you to be more polite ah hardworking ah and those good values. Yea it's good if you learn it (kind of ironic hor) but I think it's not good when it's counted in one of your important subjects lorh. You know the activation enery you need to get good grade in this subject is super high one mah!!! Super hard to get A's loh, maybe me only lah hahahaha! Oh and in order to get good grade in P.M. hor, you still have to finish a project, which is SUPER FUNNY ONE HAHAHAHHA. You have to finish some works ah, like if the moral value you're going to introduce is love your surroundings or etc, you have to take a photo of you picking up rubbish at roadside LOL and etc!! Hahahaahah I think it's hilarious, because you pick up the rubbish only for the photo taking mah, like you really went to pick up so people can take photo of you. Some of my friends even throw their own rubbishes on the road IN ORDER to pick them up hahahahha! It's quite silly right?? Picking up the own rubbish you threw then take picture of it........ Sounds hilarious hahahahahah. So there's this part of the project hor, you have to, um, like decorate your school compound??? Or making it cleaner or something, like contributes for your school compound lah hahahahah but major abit, then take pictures of it. Our teacher decided to let us decorate one of our school's wall! The other classes had already painted it blueeeeeeee~ And then our job is to decorate! Which means draw lah, and paint colours on them! Super excited one cus that drawing is mineeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! I sketched it and then teacher was super satisfied with my drawing loh!!! So harmony ah my drawing hahahaha! I must tell every people I know that the painting was done by me!! XD I'll post the picture up if the wall is done! :P Oh it's a bus with different races on, race car AHAHHAHAHA LOLLLLLLLLLLLL. Got Indian, Chinese and Melay!! Ohohohoho super excited one, why am I so creative ah, must write my BIG BIG name on it hahahahhaha!!! *By the way, just told my father hahahahahhaha and he asked me what would I get in return =.=* 

Again, CHINESE NEW YEAR IS COMING SOOOOOOOON!!! By the way I enjoyed this Saturday! :D It's a great day for me! Got alot of scratchings from Jordin (I simply spelt his name one), btw Jordin is a golden retriever hahahahahah! A puppyyyyyyyyyyy!! Dawwwwwwwwwww super cute one!!! But he won't sit still to let me touch him hahahahha. And my poor Dolphy (Simply spelt her name also), aiya Jennifer(spelt her name correctly! XD) so easy to get jealous one hahahahah!!

Oh I joined 舞之恋, ohohoho it's an annual event in our school's Chinese Club! It's all about danceeeeeeeeeeeeee, :p. Wanted to join that event from the start already but never have the courage to do so, this year is my last year mah, so I gained all my courage and also some randomness and joined hahahhaha! Along with my bamboo friend hahahhaha. :P

Btw bamboo if you saw this,
.sselesu ton era uoy

Hehehhehe peace x.