WHYYYYYYYY

Have this sudden urge to change everything! Haiya everything is so surreal. SURREAL!!! School has been good, since we just had 4 days without school continously hahahaha!! Malaysia has the most holidays I think, BEST COUNTRY EVER. Not when you think of another side of it...........

Why am I on this earth ah??
Why am I living??
Why am I typing??
Why am I thinking what i'm going to type later lol! hahaha
Why should I study?? People told me reading is good and good results makes you better, but why??? Why all the things that people assumed good and beneficial sometimes don't look like what they supposed to be???? Who said you must get good grades so you'd be rich??? That is just a statement by the others mah!!! Why should I listen to it??? People assumed reading is good then helps alot in your future. Really??? Really meh????? There's people that didn't get good grades when they were in school and now they're rich also mah!!! Lucky?????? WHY SHOULD I READ WHY SHOULD I EAT WHY SHOULD I SLEEP WHY SHOULD I WEAR UNIFORMS WHY SHOULD I WEAR SHOES WHY SHOULD I WEAR CLOTHES WHY SHOULD I BUY CLOTHES WHY SHOULD I PLAY FACEBOOK LOL WHY SHOULD I TYPE USING KEYBOARD WHY SHOULD I DO MY HOMEWORK UGH WHY SHOULD I OBEY MY TEACHERS WHY WOULD MY PARENTS LOVE ME SO MUCH.

Why are we on this earth. Who am I?????? Who are you?
Aiya headache lah think of this!!! == Still have to do my homework and carry on like this question never exists. But it does, it exists cuz you can see it in my blog mah! hahahahahah, I hope I made your head aches also ok, cause mine aches so much. IT'S NOT FAIR IF I'M THE ONLY ONE THAT'S THINKING ABOUT THIS QUESTION!!!!! ok last
why are you reading this blog of mine hahahahaha OH WAIT STOP!!!! STOP!!!!!!!!!

WHY ARE YOU CLICKING THE RED 'X' LEH??? loves <33333 hahahahahah="" p="">

Thank-yous

Hi it's the midnight bella again, a.k.a the emo bella. I just finished doing sit-ups and the maximum times that I can do is 25! LOL ahahhaha! I'll improve, I WILL!!!!! Um, I just want to rant. :<

Thank you ah, for making me feeling out of the box!!! So I can learn to be independant.
Thank you also, for making me feeling so awkward!!! Nothing to learn from here hahahaha.
Thank you again!!! For showing me what's wrong and not to do..........
Anyway, I just want to tell you that, whatever you did to me is not worthy at all. Man I know you purposely did that one ok, don't go 'round and act all innocent, ''Huhhhh?????? What's wrong????? Why she say me liddat?????''

Chinese New Year is coming!!!!! Ohohahahohohohahaha, one week holidays! Friends!!! Families!!! Angbaos (EMPHASIZED)!!!! Can't wait to celebrate Chinese New Year! Ah also got bad news, I think our first exam would be held in March, which means after CNY lah. #MUSTGETGOODGRADES.
Speak about hashtags, hahahahaha!!! Wern and me had so much fun just now, cannot stop laughing at .......... hahahahahah!

Aiyo sometimes I'm just really confused about everything. but there are just things that you can't tell the others, even if you wanted to, those are just, secrets???? Not really secret also leh, you just don't know how to tell the others, it'd be really weird if I told that to someone else. Ya la so weird. = =

2years already ah khor ee ning!!!!!!!!!!!!! 2 years yo so fast.......

Better or worse?

Actually depends on what we think la right? 'cus things have many perspectives ma....... If you're down and blue, the things you will think of will surely be negative things right...... Sorry ah I still cannot get over my own mental obstacle....... I don't want it. :( I don't want myself to be like the other crazy women I have seen.........

I mean, still have me okkkkkkkk, but it's awkward, how? IDK LAAAAAAA. O' Lord please tell me that which path is the right way, and lead me to the way you want........ Is this class that You wanted me to be in? ;-; BUT WHY!!!! I don't want to be in that class, it might be hurtful to the others but, man that's the last class, I had the best grades out of them...... How???? How did it happen????? (cus you didn't read la ofc) Ugh who else can I blame except myself. -_-
Homework is fine leh really, why does she have to be like........... UGH it's ok I'll try to ignore everything she did ok, hopefully. :(

Hahahah we're having an exam this March, and it ONLY includes Form 5's courses!!!!! I really hope I can get well in that exam, and the first rank in my secondary school life lol hahahaha!

Life has been great, God has given me wonderful times and grace, amen!!! Yea as I said, postive thoughts attract positive results! So, everything has been better, better and betterrrrrrrrr. I hope I can solve the only problem of mine...... Well, a worse problem of mine, the transport from school to home. You can say i'm all ugh cus i don't want to walk home, OFC duwan la so hot the weather!!!!! T_T I don't wannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnt!!! God please please please help me with this problem alright? D:

There's this form I've been asked to fill in, biasiswa one, then there's the boxes for me to tick. About my religion........ Gosh I wish I can tick the box!!!!! TICK THAT BOXXXXXXXXXX DAT BOXXXXXXXX. Ugh, in my dreams............. Someday, someday...... ;-;

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WANQINGGGGGGGGG, let's forget the thing you just told me today. super scary one lor hahahahah!! Happy birthday dearrrrrrr, we've been through alot of big and small things, actually, most of them are big hhahahaha! I was so 'cute' way back then, it's really a miracle that you still want to talk and be my friend... :( You're in my list ok i got chuuuuuuuuuu~ <3 nbsp="nbsp" p="p">
Good afternoon and i want to go take a shower already ok hahahah! Oh and, serves you right H.I. < You deserve all the bad things ok......... Ok stop i'm starting to curse alr cannot!!!!! cannot curse!!!!!!!
xoxoxoxoxoxo loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee